Kristina Calco
Dec 26th 1989 - Dec 4th 2005
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Kristina
January 27th 2012
Well, I was originally on google, playing around, and I googled my first name "Kristina". I saw a picture of her on google, and was like wow she's really pretty! I'm 22 years old, and I too had people make fun of me in elementary school, calling me "four eyes" because I wore glasses and everything. I never knew this girl, but I wish she could just see how beautiful she was..and that boys didn't even matter at her young age, although most girls go through that. I really wish I knew her, because I would tell her how pretty she was, and she would have a friend to talk to any time she needed it... I realize that she would be 23 at the end of this year, so she and I were pretty much the same age... She was less than a month older than me. I read her story, because I stumbled upon it, and saw "In Memory of Kristina Calco". So, I got to reading her story. Suicide and bullying are so prevalent in today's society. It's SO sad... She was loved by so many, and sadly that usually doesn't occur to them. I've never committed suicide (obviously) or attempted suicide, but I've had the thoughts.... I'm glad that mine were just thoughts...or else there'd be another tragedy... So sad that it happens almost everyday... RIP Kristina. You are God's beautiful Angel!!
Ryan Barham
January 14th 2012
you died too young, you had your whole life ahead of you.
you were a beautiful, smart and loving person to all, i truly believe that. condolences from london, i wish her family all the best x
Mandi
January 7th 2012
I don't have a memory with Kristina, as I did not know her. I stumbled upon her story, and it touched me so much. When I was 13, I attempted to kill myself for the same reasons Kristina ended her young life. Reading her story hit me hard, and you do not know how much I wish she would have failed just as I did, that she'd still be alive. From what I learned in her story, she was truly the most amazing girl. I would have been honored to be friends with her, even just to meet her once. So I would like to leave a message to her: Kristina, as soon as I saw your picture, I thought of you as one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. Reading your story, knowing you and I feel the same way about ourselves, it hurts. I know how painful those feelings are, and I positively HATE that you could ever feel that way. You're so amazing, sweet, kind, talented, bright, cherished, and positively gorgeous. I know you didn't think of yourself as attractive, but I promise with all of my heart, you are so BEAUTIFUL, it's unreal that someone can be as beautiful as you are! I know you're up there in heaven, and I hope you take my words to heart. Ever since my problem with suicide/self hate, I search the internet trying to help others like me before they take their lives. Kristina, you do not know how badly I wish I could have stopped you, that I'd known what you were going through. You're a blessing to this world, I wish so badly that you were here. Just seeing your picture brightens my day! You are truly the most amazing, beautiful, talented, sweet, cherished, gorgeous, bright, gifted, wonderful, child of God I have ever heard of, thank you for touching my life in ways I cannot explain.
tamara fleming
December 31st 2011
i will never forget the first time i met you. i was so envious of your smile and grace. 7th grade. you were the most beautiful girl i had ever seen. i wish you knew how beautiful you were inside and out. that day you didnt make the volleyball team, i had wished you did. i think back to that day ever other month or so and wish i could havve done something else to make it right. you were the most amazing girl i've ever met. i really hope that you have realized by now that you were loved more than you even know. all it take is a personality that lights up a room, which you had the moment you opened the door. you were never ugly, and i am so sorry for all of those people who told you that you were ugly. you are and will always be beautiful in my eyes. i'll miss you forever.
tamara
Jennifer Wolkenhauer
November 15th 2011
You don't know me but through my work I go into our local school and teach about the dangers of bullying and how the students can take an active role in preventing it. In my constant research, I came across a video with Kristina and felt compelled to find out her story. It is such a tragic loss for all. I hope that by telling her story to my students, they can see the devestation bullying can cause and be the beginning of the end to this abuse. While I can't replace your loss and for this I am truly sorry, I hope her story can save another child's life.
jasmine
November 14th 2011
Christina did what she thought was right, reading all of the other comment i realized that they got through the bullying..the boys that we're picking on her must have taken it to a certain extent. may her beautiful soul rest in peace, you are loved and missed
Serena
November 5th 2011
I did not know Kristina, but she was a beautiful girl.
I was new to my city when I moved in grade 7, and I got bullied terribly for my glasses and my lack of fashion sense. All I remember about middle school is that I wanted to end my life.
Now, i'm 18 and i've grown a lot. I no longer think about suicide in any way shape or form, but the bullying from middle school still haunts me. My self esteem is still so painfully low.
My thoughts are with you.
Michael F - Columbus, Ohio
October 12th 2011
Correction on my email.
Michael F - Columbus Ohio
October 12th 2011
Kristina, I did not know you, but I would have counted it an honor to. You are such a beautiful young lady. The reason those guys picked on you, is becuase guys, at that age, normally only want one thing. They wanted you to be with them and they knew they could never be with such a beautiful and wonderful young lady. They were jealous of you. They thought if they could bring you down that maybe you would lower your standards enough to go on a pity date with one of them. You are an angel. I went through my entire school life being picked on and teased etc... I feel atleast part of your pain. I know that you have moved on and in time you will see what could have been. I only hope that the next run at this life will bring you all the happiness and fullfillment that you truly deserve! God Bless you and keep you, until it is time for you to come back.
T WELCH MADDEN
September 16th 2011
I graduated from Portage Northern in 1994. I was starting to think that the bullying in high schools middle schools and elementary shcools had gotten a little better since I had graduated. Then last year the "IT GET'S BETTER PROJECT" was started. And in the first few months of schools starting back up again there were all these stories on the news of kids all ages taking their own lives from the bullying they were recieveing.
I still remember all of the names of the kids that bullied me at Portage North Middle, and Northern High. I still remember everything they said to me. Probably will never forget it.
And from the years of torture, ridicule, torment. I atempted suicide 3 times during my high school years. It was after the third attempt, I realized it wasn't my time to go. And then found the strength to get threw it.
After all of the statistics and such started hitting the news at the beginning of last years academic year. I was shocked and uncomfortable with how the numbers were so high. And that this was still going on. I then wanted to do something! And started a candle light vigil project here in Battle Creek, where I live now. Since the last academic year I have hosted two of these vigils. The last one was held this last July. My plan and hope is to keep doing these and to make people awhere this is a huge problem still! I am trying to orginize a play and presontation to take to Portage Northern High. That will help these kids understand that what they are doing is more damaging than they can ever imagine. And some will be unreversable, and could possibly be deadly. And to make the teachers of these schools awhere they need to accept respibilty and take action when they can.
After reading her story, and seeing it on the news tonight it really tugged at my heart strings. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am about your loss.
At the next Candle Light Vigil I hold. I will light my candle in the memory of Kristina.... She will be in my thoughts and prayers for quit sometime now.
God Bless,
Tim Welch Madden
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/tim.welchmadden
shawna walden
July 25th 2011
This is a very mindblowing story kiristina was a beautiful girl so so pretty how could others make someone so low? Im a college student and Im in a speech class I chose the topic of bulling because Iwas also bullied in middle school and It was the worst time of my life. Im 25 years old now, I still rember the names I was called and the way people use to make me feel I felt alone. when I read this story Kristina reminded me of myself in a lot of ways and some of those feelings I still face today ,and because of that and kristinas story I will be talking to students about the impact bulling really has on a person. Poor beautiful kristina Im so sorry kids had no feelings for your pain and i will touch as many students as I can for you and myself
Alissa Pumala
May 31st 2011
I was bullied from kindergarten through 5th grade and the pain's NEVER left me. I still haven't fully forgiven the people who caused me so much pain. My pain was applified and still is at 16 with Attetion Deficit Disorder and depression and anxiety. Suicide before this year (2011) was the farthest thing from my mind but now it's a constant cloud over my head. I never feel free. But I can'tcommit suicide because my mom has lost 5 family members since June of 2010 including her mom. I can't commit suicide for my mom. She's the only reason I'mkeeping myself alive. Otherwise, to me, life has no purpose.
Cassy
May 9th 2011
I don't even know where to begin.
I found Kristina's story on a youtube video and started bawling within the first minute of it. I'm 15, and after reading about what went on in her mind it shocked me because I live it every singly day of my life. I know exactly how she felt, it's almost like we're the same person or we share the same mind or something. I, too, have a problem with self esteem and being bullied and just everything down to not being able to look into a mirror, I go through every. singly. day.
My birthday is also December 5th, which I thought was a weird coincidence as well.
Kristina, although I didn't even know her or of her until now, gives me so much strength and I will forever admire her for that. She reminds me that even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes, there are people that care about you and love you so much.
Her story is a lesson for me as I'm recently on the brink of suicide myself. I will continue to keep her in my thoughts and prayers, as I have never been able to relate to someone as much as I have to her.
Chalea Edwards
April 26th 2011
My heart goes out to the Calco family. I lived in the K'zoo area for several years. I wish that the rest of the world could have met Kristina. This breaks my heart and reminds me to pull my little ones closer daily and love them more than the day before.
Amanda H
April 21st 2011
I just have to say, you were such a beautiful girl it seems like you were beautiful on the inside and out, and im so sad you took your own life because of bullying and low self esteem, first glance you can tell your stunning! I wish you could of of realized that.
when I was in highschool I had to deal with bullying too, from boys and girls it happened in grade 8&9 it was horrible, but what kids dont realize is that after highschool that stops and it just doesnt matter. I cant believe kids are still taking their lives because of bullying it makes me so sad. Rest in peace beautiful angel~
Mark Kelly posting this for Jen
April 8th 2011
Jen,
I've signed this memory page in the past. I come by here now and then to see what people say about Kristina. I saw your post. If you ever need someone to talk to, please email me.
Jen
April 8th 2011
You are apsolutlly beautiful. It makes me so sad that you felt the way you did and felt there was no way out. I have struggled with depression all my life, especially during adolence. I'm 20 now, but I still deal with it. I was feeling really bad tonight and visiting your page made me realize that we are never alone and there are so many people that love and care about us, even if we may not feel it. Rest in peace beautiful girl.
Kaleisha Nicholson
February 24th 2011
I want to send my deepest condolences to the family of Kristina Calco and to the families of children who have also lost their lives to Bullycide. I am writing a college paper on school violence which includes cyber bullying, Bullycide and gun violence. In my paper, I am raising awareness about these tragic crimes and showing the devastating outcomes that come with it. I am currently doing research for my paper and I came across Ms. Kristina Calco. She was such a beautiful young lady and her story brings tears to my eyes. I am including Kristina's full story in my paper and hopefully this will help others not only see the warning signs of Bullycide but understand what it is. Life as a teenager can be hard. There are so many changes that a teen goes through, physically and mentally. And I can understand how it can become overwhelming. But it hurts me that teens go through all this pain and sadness and feel that taking their life is the only solution to relieve that pain. Thank you for sharing your daughter’s story and making resources like this available for those who may need it.
Robert Paquette
February 17th 2011
i know it must be tough with her gone but i have obsessed over how a girl so beautiful and smart would take the easy way out. i only wish she had chose better and was still here with her friends and family. if only someone had seen her pain sooner. i was bullied all through highschool but i still to this day can only begin to dream of a girl so gorgeous as kristina. my prayers and thoughts go to her family and may kristina watch over her family always. sincerely, rob
Bridgette Macander
February 9th 2011
I am 12 years old and i have been bullied by girls from 4th grade and up. It is very hard to deal with it. And i know what Kristina went threw. It is terrible. And everytime i hear her story and others i just think why do people act this way everyone is different. I think bullies shouldnt be born if they do this. Kristina i know what your going threw and i am sorry that you had to take your life because of people like this.
R.I.P Kristina:)
Mark Kelly
January 31st 2011
Remember the times when smiles and laughter caused days to fly by on carefree winds. Remember the sunshine and those long walks and talks about nothing meaning little to the mind and everything to the heart. Remember those embraces and kisses on the cheek that spoke silent "I love yous". Remember how from the very first moment you were lost under a spell you cared nothing about being free from. Remember how special you felt being a part of something too big for this world to hold. Remember the first time you saw those eyes looking right through you as if to say we are forever a part of each other. Remember all the special pieces of a beautiful life that made all your trials and troubles seem worth the effort. Remember Kristina cares for each of you with a love no earthly boundary can dissolve. Remember you all were the lucky ones for having such a lovely angel on loan from God. Remember in God's infinite wisdon and love He created a life after this one where no one will ever have to say goodbte again. Kristina waits there in heaven for each of you. A lifetime here is but a blink of an eye there in heaven. She will barely breathe heaven in and you all will be there again by her side for all eternity. Remember Kristina hasn't died but stepped through a door just out of your sight. When you speak to her speak as though she is just in the next room. When you think of her smile and remember only these good things. Kristina certainly left you each enough love in your hearts to carry you through this life. When the sad times come look to the skies and let her love rain down. God bless each of you.
Peter Kremidas
November 27th 2010
Kristina, I was never blessed with the privelege to meet you but i'm always thinking of you. I feel horrible for what you have been through, I'm so sorry that people saw joy in bullying you, i'm even sorrier that you didn't have someone by your side when you truly needed them. I truly wish that we were best friends, that I had helped you when you needed it, that I told you how gorgeous, smart, artistic you were. Looking forward to seeing your beautiful face up there in heaven one day. I'm thankful for everything you have done, i'm also thankful for the mark that you have placed on my heart permenantly. I will never forget you Kristina Calco. Rest In Peace Kristina, with great love, Peter Kremidas.
Pamela
November 10th 2010
a lump in my throat grows as i read Kristina's story. Im 17 years old and have thought of suicide many times, especially when i was younger before my teenage years. Constant verbal abuse left me feeling worthless and at times i was so close. i have never told anyone this and my family has never known but i now feel guilty. i would never want to leave it all behind leaving them thinking why. i dont want to hurt them. i feel alot better now. it been years since that happened. i have learned to love my life, the good times and bad. Kristina, all i can say is that you are gorgeous inside and out. i wish i couldve been that supportive friend you needed. it pains me to read your story that doesnt have a happy ending. baby girl you are in heaven now, with love in your heart and strength in your soul. the world will have to go on without you.
forever with love, Pamela
Ashlie
October 28th 2010
I am only 12 and I am extremely sensitive. I heard about another story similar to this on 20/20 just hours ago except no one committed suicide. I now feel inspired. One day I hope to grow up to become famous and if that goal is achieved I hope to donate alot of the money I earn to charities and spread awareness about bullying and suicide. Kristina was so beautiful, It's hard to believe someone who looks so happy could end her life because of what others were saying. But in saying that I guess after a long period of time being continuosly called names or being talked about rudely you would start believing these things. I get bullied I sometimes feel insecure but I now realise that life is too precious to lose. If only she had realised she truly was beautiful, talented, magnificent and amazing in every way she could of led a long, healthy life and achieved her goal of becoming a scientist. Soar through the heavens with the angels and maybe one day we shall meet (:
mariquita
October 10th 2010
I still sit here in shock looking at the pictures of this beautiful obviously amazing little girl and just can't imagine anyone wanting to make her feel anything but special. My heart breaks for her and her family. I have a 13 year old daughter who has dealth with being bullied and I could never imagine life without her. I pray everyday that she can stay strong. Children are cruel and I don't know if they realize their actions and words can hurt this deeply. To Kristina's family, this is a beautiful thing you are doing to keep her memory alive and to open people's eyes. I commend you and will continue to pray your family everyday for the rest of my life. Your daughter was a true angel.
Lindsay boffa
October 1st 2010
I'm almost 27 years old and I can still feel the pain that I experienced when I was in junior high and on from others bullying me. I remember coming home crying, seeing "Lindsay B is a scrub" written all over the tables in my 7th grade science class, being called anorexic, and daydreaming of the day that I would be accepted for being me. I never did anything to deserve the treatment that I got. I thought about killing myself many times in my earlier days... for those of you that think that Kristina was crazy or stupid for what she did... looking back now I feel foolish for those thoughts I once had, but totally know why she thought what she did. Teenagers are horrible to one another. In every middle and high school there are kids that try to make another's lives a literate nightmare. I dreaded going to school every day. I hated myself and I beleived the things that those kids said about me. Thanks to them, I am still fighting this and will probably continue to the rest of my life. I now life the life of a successful person, but behind my shell is years of abuse... I smile at the end of the day now though. Some of those morons that tortured me a long time ago have found me on FB and feel that we should connect on there. I have and I've looked to see what they are up to... believe me, if you are a teenager that is getting bullied, believe me... you will get your cake later in life. Many of those morons have let themselves go, have kids out of wedlock, didn't graduate college or even go, and are living in their glory days from junior or high school because that's all they have. Keep trying to be the best that you can be. It wll truely pay off in the end. I promise. Don't give up and please don't give into their shit... I know how hard it is and how much hatred you have toward whatever group is tormenting you... I carry it today, but it makes me stronger. If anyone reading this needs a friend or needs to talk about this, please feel free to email me. You have a friend that knows exactly what you're going though.
Daniela Robles
September 16th 2010
It is amazing to think that so many people have stopped to read about Kristina, and that many more will be touched by the story of this beautiful, tragic young girl. I too, as many others before me have written, was a victim of bullying for almost 14 years and I also attempted against my life (ironically, it was one year before Kristina's departure, January 2005) but the death of a dear friend of mine, on the same night of my failed attempt, by the same matters that moved me to it (depression), made my life turn around. He did what I dared not to and, at first, I felt like a coward and a loser for not gaving the guts to "end it all". But when I saw and felt the pain of knowing I could have changed something for him and didn't, it was like realizing how close I had been to the edge of the cliff. After his memorial service in school I returned everyday to light up the candles until they consumed completely, and there I decided that I would live not only for myself, but also for him, for his death had taken away my desire to die too. It's been hard to go on, to accept that I can't be perfect or beautiful but that people love me this way nonetheless. I've gone through that road Kristina traveled and all I can think is I don't want this fate to happen to anyone out there ever.
Mexico is a country where bullying and abuse are constant, but that doesn't have a way to fight them off, where nobody really cares about this matter and things are left to be solved by parents of teens alone. I love my country, my people and I really think there is a way to fight this horrible habit off, like Kristina's parents have done with organizations and life-experiences on the internet. I know it's hard, bit I actually want to start something like this here, where teens can find help on the words of others and hear their wounds before they too stand at the edge of the cliff.
Kristina: we never met but I too think you were a beautiful, gracious girl with the potential to be everything you wanted to be. Your death has not been in vain, for many, many have learned something from your lovely, saddened eyes. I will too, not give up despite the odds and fight to make a change for teenagers around me and everywhere, until bullying is erradicaded not only from Mexico, but from all the world.
Algún día podremos cantar victoria Kristina, hasta entonces ayudanos a salir adelante, niña hermosa de ojos marrón.
"One day we'll all be gone, but lullabyes go on and on. They never die, that's how you and I will be."
Billy Joel
Anonymous
September 15th 2010
I can almost relate to this story, However I wasn't such a well good person. through out elementry school around abotu 3rd grade I got into fighting and not like a bulyl fighting someone messing with me and me giving them a good old fashioned passionate ass whooping (which kristina's bullies would've gotten if I ever saw it) I however had gotten to a point where fighting just didn't cut it anymore and in middle school I swore off fighting for what I thought was for good. I went through middle school constantly being harrased and my violent tendancies led me to write in my journal about several things which i belive myself would not lead to people feeling sorry but instead think "thank god he never pulled any of these things off, by god there would be news reports and memorials for days that sick f***!" In 9th grade I had dropped the whole violent attitude not by choice but merely my mental condition(manic depression) hitting hard with the stop of my adhd medication, so around 10th grade, S*** really hit the fan I began dating girls, and countless times I attempted but failed at endig my own life one time merely by pure luck which was more in 11 grade, I had attempted to use a knife and not a slow peacfull way out as the medication never seemed to work. I now have a scar that is mearely a hair strand away from a vein in my arm. SO in a way crying is good had it not been for the tears and not pure depression with no tears there is no doubt in my mind that I would have struck the vein when stabbing my wrist open. It had blurred my vision so much that i had missed so little that the only effect that passed was passing out from a combination of the pain meds and bleeding out. I had awoken 2 hours afterwards and realized it was time to start a drastic change in my life. It's people like this girl who I aim to help and hope that one day I can make a diffrence in peoples life through music. I am of course no christian but I have learned with the simple rule, as long as you follow it like a religion, to live life to it's fullest and make life what you want it to be can be a real life saver because even nowadays I still have suicidal tendancies and even without medication (whih I refuse to take on the basis that is makes it worse) I still have a overall happy life. I refuse to remincesse about past times and past hurts (even though just like any normal person it will catch up once in a while) I still manage to push my self through, I am also proud to say I am cut free for 2 and a half years now and my scars have began to heal (besides the wirst one which I hope never heals as it is a constant reminder of why I decided to start to change my ways) I will leave with one final message to parents... If you see cuts on your childs wrists it could mean they most likely just want attention or they really are suffering but the place parents never ever ask about is the legs so look for the signs they arn't hard to miss and by the time you do notice if you don't pay attention to your child you will have the horrible fate of finding your child like kristinas parents did... so please parents pay attention to your kids and talk to them everyday youa s their parents should know better then anyone when they arn't havign a good day. I love my mother because if it wasn't for her advice and wisdom she shares and the life lessons that I know today that she taught me as she raised me I would have the same fate as this young girl. ANd reember don't jsut tell your kid to stop cutting because belive it or not it is additive after a while instead help them through it hiding the knives around you house won't matter kids are smart they'll think of anything to just get in that cutting craving
Gabe
September 12th 2010
I just can't imagine a young girl this beautiful could see herself that way. I don't even know what to say, it's so tragic.
Francesca Carlino
September 12th 2010
Kristina if only you knew how pretty you really were! This story really touched me, I guess in a way Kristina reminds me of myself! I have also gone through bullying and know how hurtful it can be ! I wish I could have been your friend Kristina and helped you get through this , I would've tried to help and stuck up for you infront of bullies! Bless you I can't believe a lovely,beautiful, graceful soul like you had to end your life to end your pain.
Rest in peace angel !
Lots of love and sympathy to your family
Francesca
xxx
P.S: You were so beautiful I wish I could have been there for you :'( even though I never got the honor to meet you I'm still sad to know you're not living a happy life!
Petter
September 10th 2010
This is so sad.. I don't know how anyone could call u ugly or anything like that! u are beautiful! i hope ur safe and happy where u are now
Justin Chander
August 24th 2010
Your story was such a sad story. You were truly beautiful, and always will be. What they did was unforgiveable!
Lily Rivera
August 14th 2010
Kristina because of reading your story I will make sure I tell my daughter how beautiful she is. You were so beautiful. My prayers are with you and your family.
Coraima T.
August 12th 2010
Kristina,
Wow your story really touched my heart. How can people be so cruel. I my-self went 15 years of being called ugly by my fellow classmates n even my mother and sister. I am 16 going on 17 now and I know i am beautiful sometimes there are time iI feel like I am not but then I think about good things. I know how you were feeling. If only you had found someone that made you feel as beautiful as you are inside and out maybe your life could have been different. Their were times i thought of suicide myself but I looked for my reason to live I had people that loved me and a baby brother that i had to look out for. As for your family I am so very sorry for your lost you had a very very very beautiful daughter and I wish that things could have turned out different. I know she is in a better place now and may one day i get to meet you in heaven kristina. with much love Coraima T.
jenna
July 30th 2010
Kristina,
You were beautiful and I wish I could find the words to explain to you how much your story touched me, and how much it changed my life and prevented me from doing stupid stuff. It turned my whole vision on life around.
I am sure you're in a better place and I will continue to pray for your family.
shruti
July 28th 2010
Kristina,
I don't know who you are, or rather were. You sounded like a beautiful person full of hope. I'm only a teenager myself and I'm doing a report on perfection and suicide. Your death will not be in vain and I will feature you in my speech. Your death may stop many others. Rest in peace.
Nicolas
July 10th 2010
I barely read this story today. July 10th, 2010. I had no idea who kristina was, I was surfing the net and came across some videos on youtube where Kristina's pictures were posted. So I looked her up, read her story and feel so sorry for her family. I hope god brings you peace and allows you to move on. I was bullied as well and my life as a teenager was a living hell. I am now27 but those teen years have left so many scars that will never go away. As many of the people who have shared their memories, I also know what Kristina went through and if only there was a way to make us realize that it's ok to talk, it's ok to tell people what we are/went through to avoid this tragic ending. Bullying HAS TO STOP! I hope that the "kids" who hurt her so much, will live with this remorse for the rest of their lives, or go through the same with their kids.
Brian Hoffmann
July 3rd 2010
I am just coming out of a dissociative disorder.. after 25 years... the first thing God brought me was the Phoebe prince story.. and from their Kristina's. In a way.. her story and mine are almost identical at that age.. even her logged mood changes until her death... I have learned a great deal about myself, and the personal closer im working on from my past from Kristina's story...
It has been an honer to have visited Kristina's History
I Found a word that I think describes Kristina.. " Trust".. and this can only come from God... Im not surprised that God brought me to Kristina's story above so many others to learn from..
The Friendly Light of God seems to beam from her in her pictures...
What a wonderful girl.. R.I.P. Kristina... and Thank you... I Pray your in Gods arms everynight...
Dermot, Ireland
June 22nd 2010
I may not have known Kristina personally but I can fully relate to what she was going through. It's very sad, this world can be so bad. Her story touched me, her kindness and generosity, her humanitarian nature, she was an angel. She is a shining light for people all over the world.
God bless, peace.
Shannon
June 22nd 2010
R.I.P Kristina.
By the sounds you were truly beatiful.
I really do feel the most for the parents.
This is so sad, bullying needs to stop.
I got bullied too, it aint nice.
I am truly sorry for your loss, at least you have all this support.
Shannon. :D
:) x
Crystal Adams
May 28th 2010
Truly unbelievable.... How anyone could hurt such an incredibly amazing soul such as her, that is absolutely apalling, and dispicable!
It's hard to believe she would have been almost my age now, my birthday was in 1989 too, I'm only 10 months older than she is. My birthday is Feb 16th, 1989. I truly wish I could have met her, she sounds like she was one of those really rare and amazing souls like my best friends.
Her story is so similar to mine in so many ways, starting in sixth grade is where it all began for me... After coming back from a vacation to New York City I found out my "best friend" had spread horrible rumours about me, and turned the entire middle school against me. It was one of the absolute most devastating and lonely times of my life. Suddenly everyone hated me, and everytime I said hi to anyone they would call me a bitch, and made my life a living hell.
Then in 7th grade I was sexually, physically, and mentally abused by one of my first boyfriends, who was fourteen when I was twelve. At that time I had absolutely no self-esteem anymore...
After all those years of physical and mental abuse I ended up hating myself, and ended up abusing myself as well...
The scars it's left will never fully go away, and it's devastating to look back even to this day, at 21. Numerous times I had seriously comtemplated suicide, so I really understand a lot of what Kristina went through, I only hope her soul is finally in a place of peace at last...
Rock
May 21st 2010
When i saw this story yesterday that really touched me because i know what it means to be bullied everyday.I know what it means to end up everything... Still last night i couldn't sleep because one mind just bugged me.Why i didn't knew her in real life ? maybe i could help her ?... maybe it's just stupid thought but still i just wanted to say that...I will never forget this story about this gorgeous girl and her cruel life and if there's some god i will always pray for her soul...Stay strong Kristina family and her friends.
Yours Faithfully
16 years old Rock from Lithuania.
Elizabeth
May 15th 2010
I came across Kristinas story and I'm terribly sorry for what happened to her. Someone I knew, not personally, just commited suicide. She jumped over a bridge onto an interstate and died of impact. The same thing happened to her (bullying wise).
I wish I could have known Kristina to talk to her about how it isn't worth it. When I was put on medication for trying to commit suicide my mom told me "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I also saw how much pain I caused my family and friends. I was beginning my 9th grade year when I tried to do that.
Whenever I start feeling down and upset, I just remember everything I have accomplished and how I have such a bright future.
I'll be in 10th grade next year and I honestly regret trying to commit suicide. I wouldn't be able to try and help people with problems like the ones I have, play volleyball, or be with my family and dogs.
I also am looking at Kristinas pictures and she is absolutely gorgeous, even when she was young. The people who told her she wasn't are crazy. She sounds like she was a really nice and smart girl too.
Kristinas Family and Friends,
I'm sorry for your loss, and I know it's hard. Just keep your head up. Share her story with people who are having the same problems. You could end up saving a child's life.
Nicole Donaldson
May 9th 2010
I didn't know Kristina, but I wish I could've been there to give her a hug and help her through the hard time she was going through.
WE MISS YOU KRISTINA
Peggy
April 21st 2010
I was asked in a class to create a page and tell real life stories of bullying suicides. I've probably looked at about every page on Kristina. I wrote about her in my page too.
I lost a friend to this also. It's definately a hard process to go through. His happened very close to how Kristina's did. I've sat and looked at these pictures and to Kristinas mom... you have changed many lives by what you've wrote about her. I was touched by the story. I'm actually 15 now, I've never thought about it till one of my friends did it. I guess I wouldn't think of doing that, like Kristina I'm a 4.0 student, not that great a sports, I have friends, but I don't always see myself as "popular". Also like her I see myself in many ways like she did. Not pretty, fat, not good at things. But I know what it put me through when I lost Derek, and his family through. I know that it killed you to think that you won't see your gorgeous daughter till you go to heaven too. I know that I might be a little behing on this story, but the way yuo explained every detail, really got to me.
Kristina,
As you probably watch down on your family every day, and are up there going to college, and doing everything you were meant to do, I read your story and say, if only I could have a friend like you. I know I don't know you and I realize everyone on this page says that their so much like you.. i don't think that everyones alike... I'm just really amazed by what you accomplished in such a short time, and to think i'm in your place about now. It's so hard.. high school, guys, friends... and the way that now, most of them have probably commented on here about how good of friends you were. I think some people feel as if you "killed" yourself but really your just on a vacation because now your away from the horrible things.. and you don't have to deal with it. I guess someday maybe I'll meet you. I'll be thinking about you, and your family. God Bless.
Ari Smithee
April 13th 2010
I feel like I really connected with the girl. I am alot like her. Shy, caring, have alot of goals. Like her, I want to be perfect by a certain time and I told myself that if I wasn't, I would do something drastic. I got over depression and know that I would never kill myself anymore. Anyways, when I found this site and saw the pictures of her, I couldn't believe how beautiful she is ! I couldn't believe she saw herself as ugly because I would not mind looking like her at all ! I wish the best to her family and hope that they will be ok and know that they will see her again some day
atalibarajas
April 12th 2010
Hi Im atalia barajas i did not know her but i came across this girls story and i know what u guys are going though ive myself lost a bestfriend of my own....
to this beautiful girl to not know what she left behind...family friends... people that love her...
her story really touched me!!
i wish the best for guys.
PPL LIKE THAT(bulies) MAKE ME SICK..!
Brittany Lofland
March 28th 2010
Hello! I didn't know Kristina or your family, but, I am deeply touched by her story. I am so greatly sorry for your loss and will be praying for you and Kristina. I first heard about Kristina's story on the International Miss Tourism Pageant website. It got me interested into finding out more about Kristina and other children affected by bullying. My heart is deeply saddened by her tragic death and the death of others affected by bullying. I was bullied in the 7th grade, and it was by the grace of God that it didn't affect me and that I am still alive today. I did deal with mild depression, unfortunately, and still sometimes feel the effects, however, I am everyday recovering and looking forward to a brighter future everyday. I compete in pageants and have many passions that I would love to be involved in through pageant systems. However, this one really hit home. I couldn't help but think that I could have been Kristina. But, like I said before, it was only through the grace of God and my loving, wondeful mother that I am still alive and well today. Thank you for sharing your story, and I want you to know that I am going to make teen bullying and depression my life mission to stop. Again, I am SO, SO sorry for this terrible loss! My heart is hurting now for you and Kristina. May God bless you and Kristina and may He embrace you in His loving arms.
Lauren Estes
March 22nd 2010
I didn't know her but im very interested in storys like these. young people like kristina had so much ahead of them..reading there stories and how patheticly mean peoeple were to her is un real to me. i cant see why someone so beautiful like her self would even let people challenge her with such words. and the boys...well they dont know what they missed because that girl was tramendously gorgeous! anyone to think other wise couldnt be more wrong..jealousy is a nice term for what they were! any one that drives a young lady to death should feel like absolute hell!!!! even 5 years later!
if i were the people that continuously were so mean gosh i would feel like the worst human being alive! but i would never be them! i would never wish missery on anyone. for her parents i keep you in my prayers and i would like you to know you are strong people! to loose a loved one and be so open to keep her amazabilities alive! my heart goes out to you and her friends
Mrs. Chris Linden
March 12th 2010
Dear parents,
Being a parent myself I can’t begin to understand the grief you are experiencing. I read all that I could about your daughter and she was a beautiful person inside/out. It’s devastating to learn that our children miss the true beauty of who they are because others cloud their judgment with insensitive words. Words are powerful they have built and destroyed countries so I know Kristina was carrying a huge burden because I was once there myself.
Dear Kristina I wish I was there to help you through your pain. I wish I could have said to you….. The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering. May your soul be at peace and filled with happiness.
Suzy Smith
March 10th 2010
"Mean People Suck".
This child is beautiful! The UGLY ONES are the ones who said these awful things to her on a daily basis. And frankly , saying that these people are "ugly" is being NICE. They are and were .. WORSE than ugly.
Beauty has NOTHING to do with the way a person looks on the OUTSIDE but what they "look like on the INSIDE".
If only Kristina could have grasped this concept before she made such an awful mistake. If only Kristina could have understood that mean people are not worth giving them "time and space in your head" before she made such an awful mistake. If only. I am so very sorry to hear that another one of our teens in this world had to experience this type of bullying attacks. Anyone caught doing this to another person should be punished to the fullest extent of the law. Teen or no teen .. put them in jail and let them sit where they belong .. along with the other nasty, no good criminals of this world. In my most humble opinion , they are no better than the person who steals, rapes or kills. Because , that is EXACTLY what they've done.
Bullying steals a person's self confidence , it rapes them of their innocence , and kills their self esteem. As bad if not worse than actual murder.
I have often said and will continue to say .. that if the laws today were like the laws of yesteryears , we could allow the general public *loose* on someone who has committed such a crime as bullying. Simply allow the public to do the punishing. Maybe then these fools would think twice about doing something such as this.
May your lovely Spirit soar through the Heavens with the Stars, Kristina !
Amy
February 20th 2010
I recently came across Kristina's story, and I could never express how sorry I am for your loss.
I am very much aware of what Kristina was going through, as I have faced very similar experiences in my past. I used to be bullied all throughout high school, was called ugly by a group of boys, got teased over and over again. I used to think of suicide every single day, the pain was just too much. I wanted to be perfect, because I thought that was the only way people would come to accept me. It hurt really badly, and I attempted suicide on my last year of highschool. I was lucky not to succeed but faced serious health issues for the following months. I am thankful I survived, and for the past year I've been as supportive as I can to teenagers who are dealing with depression, bulling and suicidal thoughts. I want to help them the way I wanted to be helped.
May Kristina's soul rest in peace. She seems to have been a wonderful, talented girl. And looking at her pictures, she was beautiful.
7th grade student
February 9th 2010
i couldnt stand loseing one of my baest friends and even though i dont know you guys im so sorry. That is really sad and i too can see why she felt that way. 7 th grade is very hard!
February 9th 2010
im so sorry
Mrs. Allie Rood
January 30th 2010
I found your story online and my heart aches to think of your loss. I do not know you or your family, but I am a mother, and imagining your grief brings me to tears.
I would like to say some things to people who think they are ugly. I have always thought I am ugly. In 7th grade, a boy tormented me so badly with words about how ugly I am and how I don't deserve to live that I became physically sick. I never told anyone about my pain. I have never forgotten it.
As an adult I have had to ask myself, why did I put so much stock in what that boy said? Why did I believe that what he said is true? And even if I am ugly, it does not portray the person I am inside. There are ugly people in this world. I am sorry, but some of us just don't have the looks that is all over magazines and television. However, looks is not all there is in life. How a person is inside counts so much more. Your body can be beautiful at 17 and after 3 kids be overweight and have saggy breasts. You can have perfect skin at 21, and at 41 get adult acne, or have an accident that leaves terrible scars. Who we are inside is what is important. Just because I am not attractive enough to be on a magizine cover does not mean that I have no worth. Whats more, it does not mean that I have nothing to give to others. Being "ugly" has made me very sensitive and compassionate to people who are "different", ugly, disabled, hopeless.
My hearts desire it to help others, because in that moment, when our eyes meet and I see their gratitude for unconditional acceptance and love, my heart overflows with joy, and nothing matters at that moment except that I have made a difference in someones life. I wish I had known this at age 13. I hope it makes a difference for someone reading this.
And to Kristina's parents: may you find peace and know that your daughter is in God's hands. I am so sorry for your loss that can never be found. However, I know joy is still possible for those who suffer and grieve.
Deveny
January 29th 2010
A year ago I came across a video on youtube of Kristina and other people that commited suicide because of bullying.
I've watched videos that told Kristina's stories.
It made me realize that it could happen to anyone.
It's strange such a beautiful girl could think she's ugly.
I hope the people that made her think that will burn in hell.
I'll never forget Kristina and her story, even though I've never known her.
My heart goes out to her family and friends.
Steven
January 5th 2010
Depression is a scary thing, and no one should ever, ever have to go through it. Every life is precious, and it's so sad how mean people can be. Kristina was a beautiful girl and I hope she has found peace. It breaks my heart that she said nice girls finish last. For anyone out there who feels that way, not everyone in the world is as mean and horrible as those who bullied Kristina. There is light in the darkness, you just have to keep searching for it. Rest in peace.
January 2nd 2010
I just web browsing on youtube until I saw the name Kristina Calco. I couldn't believe my eyes that such a beautiful angel was bullied. I can't relate to the fact of being bullied but I have seen bulling and was a bully once around 3rd grade. Back in third grade I was tight friends with a girl who was the leader of the bully group and me the co-captain. We would seriously scare the whole third grade class and skip classes like the rebels we were. I was able to beat up anyone, but when your the leader and cpatain you got your people to do the job. Its was fun for awhile until I saw a girl bleading through her whole face but you had to act like nothing would matter. When the group left to go some where else I said "I had to go to the bathroom you can leave without me!" I ran back to help the girl and then took her to the nurse. The nurse was shocked and reported the incident to the principal. We (the bullies) were sent to the office and my mom was right there next to me (Oh Snap!) From there my bullying days were over. I moved to new jersey and my role became standing up for the victim. When I first came to jersey I made friends with my besties and other friends. One of my besties was a target for bullies, not until I came and just started to stand up to those bullies. They hated my guts but they wouldn't dare to make fun of me only one time some kid he probably had a crush on me and
Eddie Brewer
December 9th 2009
Hey,
It was really tragic what happened to Kristina. I know I haven't met Kristina but I would like to say a few words to honor her. Kristina was a smart, brilliant, shy, caring, thoughtful, and active person. Her tragic death had a powerful impact on people that has never met her before. I was watching her story on YouTube by Zweeps, I almost cried everytime. I watched her video like 10 times because its so sad. Them boys that was bothering her must have just been jealous of her and her nice and neat 4.0 GPA, and BIG dreams for finding a cure for Cancer, and AIDS. I admire her for being so smart, brilliant, shy, caring, thoughtful, and active. Beings I know that someone like Kristina has committed such a horrible accusation it makes my heart ache because I too love everyone and everything just as Kristina did. Them boys should be punished severely for making Kristina feel as she did. No one should get away with such behaviour, in my world treating someone so badly so that they commit suicide is murder in my book. I wish to meet this awesome person Kristina Calco when I reach my time to be before the golden gates of Heaven.
Love:
Eddie Brewer
Ben R
December 4th 2009
Some cosmic force drove me to discover Kristina's life on December 3rd, 2009, at my home within an hour's drive of Portage. I don't know if it's a sign or a coincidence, but my heart is very full at this moment. It's such a shame that some of these children seemed destined to become matrys for this cause, but this girl will live on through the people, like me, that come to know of her and her story. All my hopes to her family and friends, who were blessed to know her.
Brandi
October 28th 2009
My heart goes out to the family and friends of Kristina Calco. I read about her story online. My story is different but I understand the depression and saddness she must have felt. When I was in school I was raped and had horrible thoughts about myself because of what I went through. The gossip and lies about me and my situation from classmates were unbearable and the school did nothing about what the classmates did to me mentally. I know the pain of saddness and the depths it can take you. My heart truely goes out to you Kristina Calco. Like I said our stories of depression may differ but I know the pain all the same. Shine bright beautiful star that your story may help others who feel or have felt the depths of depression.
-Brandi C. Dunaway-Garcia
Liz
October 25th 2009
I have no idea who this beautiful girl is, however, she is two months younger than me. I am saddened to think that such a pretty girl thought that boys knew what they were talking about. I am so sorry that she didn't listen to her friends who told her that she was gorgeous. Kristina looks like a model, and I just wish that she was here so I could personally tell her that. I pray that you, as her parents, continue to share her story and prevent another beautiful child from doning this
cynthu
October 22nd 2009
may her soul rest in peace...i dont know her but if i would have met her i would have said to her u r really one of d beautifulst person i have seen
Koto Ayodeji
September 23rd 2009
To the parents:
The world has lost a very special person, that sweet little face says it all really! Learning about Kristina has touched me deeply and I hope to devote some of my life to addressing school bullying, perhaps setting up a club in England for bullied kids teaching them about how bullies operate and how to combat them.
Those bestowed with Kristina's gifts: profound emotional sensitivity, creative brilliance, kindness and impulsiveness, are uniquely suseptible to the mankind's malevolence and our schooling should deal with this, I witnessed disgusting things at school. How many Columbines can we utimately afford?
I remember she has said: 'You can't imagine the things they said to me.....they were terrible, really terrible..'
Her case highlights that there must be something intrisically wrong with western society today if a special person like Kristina is driven to even consider such a decision. We will ALL be worse off for it.
Koto
Savannah Underwood
September 19th 2009
This is a tragic and heartbreaking story. i wish this had never-ever happened. i feel terrible just reading. also, i swear i'm not making this up, my friend lily bailey said that Kristina called her and her other friend ashley freeny before she hung herself . if you dont believe me, email me, and ill give you the details. :'( i feel so guilty for not telling her parents :(
Christian
September 11th 2009
Somehow while browsing on Youtube, I came across a bullying video and saw this terrible story of these teens taking their own lives because of the pain and torment they suffered at the hands of other people. It's ironic that Kristina thought she was "ugly", because after seeing her photo on the Youtube video, I said to myself how beautiful she was and didn't fit the profile for the typical teenage bully victim. When I started reading about her, it made me almost sick to my stomach seeing such a wonderful and obviously talented person taking her own life because of the influence others had on her life. She clearly had a very bright future, had a good heart, and as I already said, she was physically beautiful as well. There was a very similar case here where I live 2 years ago which was disgusting, and I can only imagine the hell being a parent and having to discover your child dead in their bedroom at their own hands. My heart goes out to the family and loved ones of Kristina. What a terrible and heartbreaking story!
Darren!
September 4th 2009
i saw kristina through a youtube page , and i will say i'm absolutely appalled at what happened. Kristina is a beautiful girl, and she has soo much in store for her in life. There's no way she was ugly or anything because ... she definitely looks like a wonderful person. She most definitely is. :) no matter what happens, kristina will be sorely missed by those dear to her. This is a great loss :(.... this girl is most definitely special in her very own way !
Kristena
August 16th 2009
wow, i know what it is like to be bullied. in elementary school i was bullied for loving animals...YES, loving animals. people made fun of me because i always talked about animals and dogs and how much i loved them. They would say to me "you are so stupid, why do u like animals so much? what's so great about them?" "you are a freak" "you are dumb" "go play with you imaginary animal friends" people would say all those things to me. i hardly said anything back. one time me and this girl were playing basketball in 5th grade. she got mad cuz i was on her team and i was "making them lose" i was never good at sports in elementary school, and people always got mad if i was on there team and didn't do something right. in middle school, i was made fun of because i had severe acne, which is gone now (i am a junior in high school) my acne was horrible..ALLL OVER MY FACE. people called me the following: "ugly" "pizza face" "freak" "gross" and some people would say "why dont u go and wash your face?" or they would talk behind my back and say "she needs to wash off her pimples!" i wud cry alot....but my friends and family heled me through it, i wud always let my feelings out. I WISH THAT KRISTINA CALCO COULD OF GOTTEN THROUGH IT. i am so sorry for this girl...she is GORGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL, SMART (i wish i was that smart lol) and SUCH A CARING PERSON. i can relate to her so much and we are the same wen it comes to being sesitive and caring for people and being nice to people. REST IN PEACE
samantha rezachek
August 5th 2009
i have depression.. anger issues, and im suicidal.. someitmes i wish someone culd help me and idk its all so confussing wen your in that certain modd its almost impossible to get out of it.. kristina's situation makes me think alot.. and i have also learned alot too.. this really does mean alot to me.. i wish i coulda been her friend and went to school with her.. becuz if i would have seen and heard the things ppl said and have done i would have baked her up.. they would have had to get threw me before they touch her. rest in peace kristina
Paige
August 3rd 2009
This story puts me to tears because i too can relate to it. Your daughter is so beautiful and its so sad to know she ended her life over bullying. I was suicidal and still suffer from long term depression and im only 19. She sounds like a wonderful person and the type of person we need more of in school and in general. People honestly do not know how bad it hurts to be called names. I know when i look in the mirror all i see is uglyness and just fat, but my friends tell me different how im so beautiful and i need to be open and not be shy anymore. Sometimes i feel like they are just saying that to make me feel better about myself. I've been bullied since elementary school and all throughout middle school till about 9th grade when ive done nothing but kill them with kindess. I still suffer from random bullying and try to deal with it. I send my prayers out to your family and your daughter who seems like an extremly incredible person. RIP Kristina
Maria
August 1st 2009
I am from the U.K, and first came across Kristina on a youtube video that was posted about her. I was shocked, outraged at her suffering, and what she'd had to endure. and i cried so much. Katrina was not just beautiful, she simply stunning. Inside and out. I have since read much about her. Inspite of the loss of your beautiful daughter, you are doing all you can to inform and help others. YOU are an inspiration, Mrs Calco. and i'm certain your daughter would be very proud of YOU.
Rest in peace, Angel.
Mike
July 28th 2009
I just found your daughters story and I had to write. My daughter was born August 22 1990 so they were close in age. We changed high schools because of the bullying; twice. My daughter ended up in therapy, she happen to mention that she didn't want to be here ; at first we thought she ment at home but we realized that she was talking of being on earth with the bullies and the regular teen problems. Thank goodneess we were able to intervene. My prayers go out to you you, her friends and family. My daughters problems started in 2005, freshmen year HS. thankfully we still have her.
thanks for listening
I am a middle school teacher and I see bullying go on, I do my best to stop it but I only have them for 40 min a day.
again my prayers are with you
Mike McGinniss
Jamie
July 24th 2009
Kristina's story really reminds me of my own. i guess i have a lot of hobbies people say im good at and im not as ugly as they say, but people still love hurting me. i almost did suicide after my only boyfriend who was like my life broke up with me, im guessing cuz his friends didnt approve. the thing that stopped me while i stood over a suicide note with a knife, was the thought of a song i love about a girl who killed herself and left her ex boyfriend and family in pieces. ive never met kristina but she sounds like an awesome person who i'd be friends with and my heart goes out to her relatives. i am now writing a song about kristina after hearing this sad story.
Mikayla
July 20th 2009
I never had the pleasure of meeting this beautiful, outstanding, and seemingly AMAZING young lady..but I really wish I had. Like everyone seems to be saying; she simply didn't realize how beutiful and wonderful she really was. It broke my heart in so many ways to read her story and know that the WORLD has suffered such a great loss.
Fly high, Kristina..but never leave us.
Stephanie
July 15th 2009
I didnt know who this gorgeous girl kristina was,But I do know her story has impacted my life very much.I cried very much reading her life story. I too was a victim of bullying and felt a deep depression, But thankfully I have friends and family that love me very much. Ive come to learn that I am beautiful inside and out and no one should judge me : )
Kristina, You were a Beautiful,Smart,and Caring girl to say the least, and you will be missed by many.You are now with God and the other angels and continue to spread your love.
May you R.I.P..and God bless your family : )
iliana garza
May 19th 2009
I do not know who Kristina was but i know her story has truly impacted my life, she was more than beautiful and her smile was breath taking. her story will always be with me, and i will share about who she was! May God bless her family!!
Julia Getz
May 13th 2009
i'm a junior in high school and for our junior research paper we are doing it on bullying. i was sitting next to my friend in the lib. and i saw her on this web site and she was kind of reading bits and pieces of the story so i asked her for the link so i could start reading it. i got half way through it and the bell rang. so i went off to the next period and couldn't even focus. kristina was soo pretty i read that people called her ugly and i turned to my friend and i said i would hate to see what pretty is cause she took my breath away when i saw her. i've always been a person who tries and stands up for people who are being picked on. not only for the fear that they may try and take their own life but also for the fear they could take all ours but also cause i don't like seeing people hurt and i know it really does hurt them inside even if they don't show it. there are two boys in my school ones is a senior and one is a junior. they get picked on everyday cause the are slower. i sat back in the audiotorium one day and watched about 5 wrestlers pick on the junior boy who is slow but still gets out on the mat and tried his hardest. i said something a few times but i'm not miss popular eaither so not many of them listen to little old me, i wish i could do more and i wish that bullies see how they really so affect the people they push around. there was a boy in my school last year who killed himself. we have no idea why? i wasn't that close to him but i saw him in school all the time and alot of my friends were really close with him and he seemed happy he was a redneck(some of the most popular boys in are school are hicks) so its not like he was bullied but i'm not sure if he had an at home bullied life but it can really take a toll on that person and my heart goes out to kristina's family and all the families like hers! but sharing your stories like this can really help open peoples eyes up
Claris
May 13th 2009
My friend was on this website and gave me the link to this website. I felt so sad after reading this. In the pictures, she is absolutely gorgeous and she looks very kind and caring. How could she not have seen what she was? I also get bullied but I don't pay any attention to it because what they are saying isn't true. Even though I never knew Kristina, I bet that what the other peope were saying weren't true either. People fail to see what effect they are having on the people they are bullying. They need to realise that by doing that, you are not only portraying yourself as an idiot but also lowering the other person's self-esteem. May god let Kristina rest in peace, and may she see that what she did was wrong. She could have easily gotten help from a couselor or principal. Not to blame her or anything just to point it out.
Kaila
May 11th 2009
I was watching a video slideshow on YouTube and when I saw her picture I immediately stopped the video. It made me sad to see that a really pretty girl with a 4.0 and everything going for her could suddenly be gone. We have never met, but, one thing's for sure you would've been my BFF! I'm one of those who strive for perfection too! I know how you feel many girls treat me so bad... I just can' believe it... My condolences to your family. You didn't deserve this Kristina. Rest in peace, Kristina.
melissa
April 29th 2009
hi
today at school we were learning about bullying and the teacher showed us a slide show about people who killed them selfs for bullying when i saw kristina picture i was thinking how could someone soooo pretty do that to her self iv been through alot also and i tryed killing myself once manythings happened to me and i didnt know what to do when i read kristina story i cried alot i didnt know her but i felt like i did and just reading it helped me not to think about that again im really sorry for your lost i hope you and your family are doing ok GOD bless you..
-melissa-
Julie
April 26th 2009
What a beautiful young lady she was. My daughters best friend took her life at the same age in 2007 and it so affected so many people, and had we all been in tune to her myspace and her sad poetry maybe we could have helped her. I felt like I had lost a daughter. She, Dakota, was a loner and it was just her and my daughter and one other friend that were always together. She felt mostly alone and isolated and depressed and took her own life. It is so hard to be a teenager. My daughter is still in therapy and is in a mental health awareness group for teens and also does the Out of the Darkness Walks. She has decided to go into this field so she can help teens and hopefully save a life. I was so afraid she would take her life after she had lost her only friend. I sat here and read Kristinas story and it makes me so sad, she was extremely beautiful and had so much going for her....people, and not just kids, do not realize the power their words have one people. To look at her pictures, she certianly looked like she reached her goals of looking pretty much perfect.....
liz
April 24th 2009
She was such a gorgeous girl and would have been the same age i am now, it makes me very sad that she didn't believe that she was beautiful. The people that bullied her were probably jealous that she had all the qualities that they didn't have. I really wish that people would just learn to accept each other for who they are :(
April 13th 2009
Wow. Kristina was really beautiful and its sad to see how people actually mistreated her. For this report in school, I wrote about School Violence and in it I mention Kristina and how people feel trapped inside. I wish I knew Kristina because she seems like a bright girl.
Josh Instrall
April 12th 2009
Hi, im from the UK in england and im 16 now, your daughter was very beautiful, it saddens me so much to know that she was bullied. i hope you and your family are doing well.
regards, Josh
B.W.Nickles
April 12th 2009
I didnt know KRIS but i feel like I know her now. This is truely a sad story. I look at the pics and she was turning into a beautiful girl. She was pure and honest and I wish there were more like her. Its a shame that she had to deal with jerks while growing up but its a true testament to how loving she really was. She didnt wanna tell on those who treated her bad and wrote about how she cared about all people. Kris u had a great heart and even better spirit. I wish i was lucky enough to know u. Im lucky enough to know ur story. I know ur in heaven smiling down on all those who love u. Look over 23000 people have come to ur website. The shy bashfull girl has 23000 peoples attention. May u rest in peace beautiful angle.
joe shennan
April 9th 2009
I didn't know Kristina, hey, I live in England, but I'm just touched by this story. I just can't contemplate why this happened, why kids have to be so cruel to other kids, why they feel the need to do it I sympathise with this story so much because I have been in a similar situation, but pulled through it. I just wish I could have done something to help Kristina, even though I know really, that there was nothing I could have done. She was a stunning young girl, and I will never forget her story
J R C
April 7th 2009
I never knew Kristina, but I can't imagine how she felt. I, myself have never bullied anyone, but was the one sticking up for that person getting bullied. Kids are cruel. They bully kids to feel accepted by the other bullies in a desperate attempt to be accepted themselves, and to feel better about their own insecurities. I have thought about commiting suicide throughout my life, but due to the grief I might leave behind, I just could never do it. Like this page states, I believe if she knew the hurt she would leave behind, she never would have done it. And, like another person wrote on here, I believe everything does happen for a reason. Maybe she did die so her story could be told, as she couldn't tell it when she was living. I stumbled upon her story while looking on youtube, and found this site after searching in more depth for her story. This is an AMAZING tribute and also an amazing testiment on how cruel kids can be. These pages need to be printed out a million times over and distributed to every high school in America. I guarantee after reading this terribly tragic story, many kids would think twice about opening their mouths only to hurt another. Thank you for this page it touched my heart in so many ways. I'm soo sorry for your loss, but out of a loss, can come so many wins. I believe that in every way, especially with this story. Goodbye Kristina, I know you are missed and you were absolutely GORGEOUS!! I just wish I could've been there to tell you that a million times over....
Christy
April 1st 2009
I just read Kristina's story today and felt upset. She was a beautiful girl.
chelsea
March 16th 2009
Kristina calco's story really had a big impact on me. I realized how bad bullying can really get. Kristina was a really beautiful, gourgoes, smart girl. she pretty much was a complete package. I wish i could've met her before she went up with the angles in a better place. So because of bullying i didnt get a chance to. Thats why i choose to watch my actions and what i say because i dont want to hurt anybody. Rest in peace Kristina.
-chelsea
Lexi
March 12th 2009
"Hey Lexi! You can't play, you're a girl!
Those were the words I heard every day on the playground when I was 7 years old.
Those were the words, of my first bully.
This made me very angry. I wanted to punch this kid in the face. So I did.
When I went home, I felt terrible.
Although the next day when I went to school, nobody ever told me I couldn't play again.
That bully taught me to stand up.
My second bully came along when I was 10 years old. Thinking that I could solve this problem like my 7th grade bully, I punched him. Unfortunetally, this bully was a foot taller than me, and very, very strong.
That bully taught me that violence wasn't the answer.
Only 6 months ago, my best friend turned against me. With her, she brought three other girls and made a hate clique...against me. They called themselves the I.C. for Inner Circle, and tormented me daily.
They became my 3rd bully.
I had no other friends at school, and blamed myself for their bullying.
I looked in the mirror and saw a too busy face, large thighs, sweaty palms and feet.
I thought I wasn't good enough, and worked hard in the desperate attempt to make myself "Worthy".
I never told anybody what was going on, and most people still don't know that it happened.
I joined clubs, worked hard on homework, but I always had to face social events, where I was alone.
I got hate e-mails every day or so.
I didn't know what to do. I knew I had to stand up, but I knew violence wasn't the answer. These bullys lasted for three months.
The last day, I decided to stand up. Although, my best friend beat me to it.
She told me that she didn't want to gossip about me, stay in the I.C. and do things like that.
I took her back.
About two months later, I got invited to an I.C. member's birthday party. It was the bullies, me, and two other girls.
We went into her hot tub, talked, cried, and made up.
These bullies are now my best friends. We have been best friends for three months.
My last bullies taught me, don't let fear paralyze you.
So when your bully threatens you, remember these three things:
Stand up. Violence isn't the answer. And Don't let fear paralyze you.
Lexi
Hayley
February 26th 2009
Today in school we had a guest speaker talk to us about suicide. An article of Kristina was shown to our class. I saw her picture and thought she looked like the last person that would end their life. She was beyond beautiful. Even though i wish she could have see herself differently, everything in life happens for a reason. i believe that kristina's story died so that her story could be heard. R I P. im sorry for your loss
Michelle Gonzalez
February 15th 2009
i never knew Kristina but im 14 and all the way in Las Vegas and i still dont know how a beautiful girl like that be hated upon. Or told she was ugly!!! she was beutiful on the outside and i bet on the inside. I know how hard it is to be in the adolecent age. I feel like dying my self at one point.
But then i think about my family. How much i love them. I think Kristina wasnt really thinking she just wanted a break at that point. She really didnt realize you can NEVER come back... Ever becuase you only have one life to Live and thats it. i wish you the best Kristina in the other Life♥
Liv
February 13th 2009
heya, i came across a video on youtube about teens commiting suicide and kristina caught my eye. Two years ago, i got raped and stalked and it was so bad that i had to move. during that time, i got super depressed and became really quiet, i had all these thoughts about wanting to end it because i felt like a failure-i had wanted to stay a virgin until marriage but it isn't going to happen now because of what happened. Someone appeared to me at that time and he changed my life. He made me believe again and even though i only knew him for a short time before the car crash, i feel blessed to have known him and called him my own. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss
Adam
February 9th 2009
Your daughter has encouraged me to keep trying. I myself did have thoughts. They are over now that I found a cure, but I hated to see my life as it was, and then after seeing your daughter's story that makes me try harder. What I mean is I talk to 10+ people over the internet and more than half of them have had "thoughts". I was about to give up on them, because the more people I meet the harder it gets. Your daughter is encourageing me to do so much, it's hard for a 17 year old to do school and help others at the same time but it's like and addiction to me. Your daughter truly was remarkable and will always be in my thoughts. Will ALWAYS remember you *Kristina*, you encourage me to do so much!
Laura
January 15th 2009
i learned of your daughters horrific experience from a memorial site, a close friend of mine comitted suicide not long ago. Kristina story influenced in my English coursework, persuading youths to stop bullying and prooving that it can have traumatic effects on many lives. I send my heart out to Kristina R.I.P beautiful. Such a pretty face hurt by so many others.
John Bows
December 24th 2008
I learned of your Daughter's story tonight as part of a video compilation about teens who've been subjected to the awful side of bullying and mistreatment. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I knew quite what to say, but I don't have the words. I only hope you find peace, and that your daughter has found it now. However, having read this story and a number of others, I will never let any child knowingly be subjected to that kind of mistreatment that your daughter had to endure. A loss such as this is far too great to allow even one more. God bless your family.
Allie McCheeser
December 4th 2008
Dear Kristina's loving family,
Well, hi. :) I read your daugher's story and I just really felt like reaching out to you. I am extremely, sincerely sorry about your daughter. Someone as beautiful outside and in, is sure to be in Heaven. I wish I could've known your daughter, she sounds like someone I would really like to get to know.
May God Bless You All.
-Allie.
paul
November 26th 2008
ive read the story about your daughter and although i didnt know her and you dont know me, i want to share the fact that i feel your pain. I had a brother that was very close to me die and i never got over it. He was also someone that looked like he had no motivation to end his life and the news of his death was so shocking to me. i just wanted to say how sorry i am about your daughter and to let you know that there are people out there that feel your pain and can console you in your time of need.
Amanda
November 26th 2008
Hi,
I've read Kristina's story time and time again. It's just so sad to me. There was this anti-bullying assembly we had in my school just 2 days ago. In the video, I saw Kristina's picture. From the moment I saw her, I only thought "How could someone so pretty take her own life?" I find it horrid she had to suffer for so long. I too feel that way. I am bullied by my old brother, and I don't think he knows what choice I can make because of him. Kristina was a true angel sent from heaven above. I wish her the best in heaven, and hope she is much happier. It's a shame, really. Such a wonderful girl couldn't see the great things she had to offer...God bless her & her family. I wish all the luck to you.
Love,
Amanda
josh
November 25th 2008
I read about about Kristina's story recently and felt deeply touched. Kristina was a beautiful girl and may god be with you and your family.
Kristina
January 27th 2012
Well, I was originally on google, playing around, and I googled my first name "Kristina". I saw a picture of her on google, and was like wow she's really pretty! I'm 22 years old, and I too had people make fun of me in elementary school, calling me "four eyes" because I wore glasses and everything. I never knew this girl, but I wish she could just see how beautiful she was..and that boys didn't even matter at her young age, although most girls go through that. I really wish I knew her, because I would tell her how pretty she was, and she would have a friend to talk to any time she needed it... I realize that she would be 23 at the end of this year, so she and I were pretty much the same age... She was less than a month older than me. I read her story, because I stumbled upon it, and saw "In Memory of Kristina Calco". So, I got to reading her story. Suicide and bullying are so prevalent in today's society. It's SO sad... She was loved by so many, and sadly that usually doesn't occur to them. I've never committed suicide (obviously) or attempted suicide, but I've had the thoughts.... I'm glad that mine were just thoughts...or else there'd be another tragedy... So sad that it happens almost everyday... RIP Kristina. You are God's beautiful Angel!!
Ryan Barham
January 14th 2012
you died too young, you had your whole life ahead of you.
you were a beautiful, smart and loving person to all, i truly believe that. condolences from london, i wish her family all the best x
Mandi
January 7th 2012
I don't have a memory with Kristina, as I did not know her. I stumbled upon her story, and it touched me so much. When I was 13, I attempted to kill myself for the same reasons Kristina ended her young life. Reading her story hit me hard, and you do not know how much I wish she would have failed just as I did, that she'd still be alive. From what I learned in her story, she was truly the most amazing girl. I would have been honored to be friends with her, even just to meet her once. So I would like to leave a message to her: Kristina, as soon as I saw your picture, I thought of you as one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. Reading your story, knowing you and I feel the same way about ourselves, it hurts. I know how painful those feelings are, and I positively HATE that you could ever feel that way. You're so amazing, sweet, kind, talented, bright, cherished, and positively gorgeous. I know you didn't think of yourself as attractive, but I promise with all of my heart, you are so BEAUTIFUL, it's unreal that someone can be as beautiful as you are! I know you're up there in heaven, and I hope you take my words to heart. Ever since my problem with suicide/self hate, I search the internet trying to help others like me before they take their lives. Kristina, you do not know how badly I wish I could have stopped you, that I'd known what you were going through. You're a blessing to this world, I wish so badly that you were here. Just seeing your picture brightens my day! You are truly the most amazing, beautiful, talented, sweet, cherished, gorgeous, bright, gifted, wonderful, child of God I have ever heard of, thank you for touching my life in ways I cannot explain.
tamara fleming
December 31st 2011
i will never forget the first time i met you. i was so envious of your smile and grace. 7th grade. you were the most beautiful girl i had ever seen. i wish you knew how beautiful you were inside and out. that day you didnt make the volleyball team, i had wished you did. i think back to that day ever other month or so and wish i could havve done something else to make it right. you were the most amazing girl i've ever met. i really hope that you have realized by now that you were loved more than you even know. all it take is a personality that lights up a room, which you had the moment you opened the door. you were never ugly, and i am so sorry for all of those people who told you that you were ugly. you are and will always be beautiful in my eyes. i'll miss you forever.
tamara
Jennifer Wolkenhauer
November 15th 2011
You don't know me but through my work I go into our local school and teach about the dangers of bullying and how the students can take an active role in preventing it. In my constant research, I came across a video with Kristina and felt compelled to find out her story. It is such a tragic loss for all. I hope that by telling her story to my students, they can see the devestation bullying can cause and be the beginning of the end to this abuse. While I can't replace your loss and for this I am truly sorry, I hope her story can save another child's life.
jasmine
November 14th 2011
Christina did what she thought was right, reading all of the other comment i realized that they got through the bullying..the boys that we're picking on her must have taken it to a certain extent. may her beautiful soul rest in peace, you are loved and missed
Serena
November 5th 2011
I did not know Kristina, but she was a beautiful girl.
I was new to my city when I moved in grade 7, and I got bullied terribly for my glasses and my lack of fashion sense. All I remember about middle school is that I wanted to end my life.
Now, i'm 18 and i've grown a lot. I no longer think about suicide in any way shape or form, but the bullying from middle school still haunts me. My self esteem is still so painfully low.
My thoughts are with you.
Michael F - Columbus, Ohio
October 12th 2011
Correction on my email.
Michael F - Columbus Ohio
October 12th 2011
Kristina, I did not know you, but I would have counted it an honor to. You are such a beautiful young lady. The reason those guys picked on you, is becuase guys, at that age, normally only want one thing. They wanted you to be with them and they knew they could never be with such a beautiful and wonderful young lady. They were jealous of you. They thought if they could bring you down that maybe you would lower your standards enough to go on a pity date with one of them. You are an angel. I went through my entire school life being picked on and teased etc... I feel atleast part of your pain. I know that you have moved on and in time you will see what could have been. I only hope that the next run at this life will bring you all the happiness and fullfillment that you truly deserve! God Bless you and keep you, until it is time for you to come back.
T WELCH MADDEN
September 16th 2011
I graduated from Portage Northern in 1994. I was starting to think that the bullying in high schools middle schools and elementary shcools had gotten a little better since I had graduated. Then last year the "IT GET'S BETTER PROJECT" was started. And in the first few months of schools starting back up again there were all these stories on the news of kids all ages taking their own lives from the bullying they were recieveing.
I still remember all of the names of the kids that bullied me at Portage North Middle, and Northern High. I still remember everything they said to me. Probably will never forget it.
And from the years of torture, ridicule, torment. I atempted suicide 3 times during my high school years. It was after the third attempt, I realized it wasn't my time to go. And then found the strength to get threw it.
After all of the statistics and such started hitting the news at the beginning of last years academic year. I was shocked and uncomfortable with how the numbers were so high. And that this was still going on. I then wanted to do something! And started a candle light vigil project here in Battle Creek, where I live now. Since the last academic year I have hosted two of these vigils. The last one was held this last July. My plan and hope is to keep doing these and to make people awhere this is a huge problem still! I am trying to orginize a play and presontation to take to Portage Northern High. That will help these kids understand that what they are doing is more damaging than they can ever imagine. And some will be unreversable, and could possibly be deadly. And to make the teachers of these schools awhere they need to accept respibilty and take action when they can.
After reading her story, and seeing it on the news tonight it really tugged at my heart strings. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am about your loss.
At the next Candle Light Vigil I hold. I will light my candle in the memory of Kristina.... She will be in my thoughts and prayers for quit sometime now.
God Bless,
Tim Welch Madden
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/tim.welchmadden
shawna walden
July 25th 2011
This is a very mindblowing story kiristina was a beautiful girl so so pretty how could others make someone so low? Im a college student and Im in a speech class I chose the topic of bulling because Iwas also bullied in middle school and It was the worst time of my life. Im 25 years old now, I still rember the names I was called and the way people use to make me feel I felt alone. when I read this story Kristina reminded me of myself in a lot of ways and some of those feelings I still face today ,and because of that and kristinas story I will be talking to students about the impact bulling really has on a person. Poor beautiful kristina Im so sorry kids had no feelings for your pain and i will touch as many students as I can for you and myself
Alissa Pumala
May 31st 2011
I was bullied from kindergarten through 5th grade and the pain's NEVER left me. I still haven't fully forgiven the people who caused me so much pain. My pain was applified and still is at 16 with Attetion Deficit Disorder and depression and anxiety. Suicide before this year (2011) was the farthest thing from my mind but now it's a constant cloud over my head. I never feel free. But I can'tcommit suicide because my mom has lost 5 family members since June of 2010 including her mom. I can't commit suicide for my mom. She's the only reason I'mkeeping myself alive. Otherwise, to me, life has no purpose.
Cassy
May 9th 2011
I don't even know where to begin.
I found Kristina's story on a youtube video and started bawling within the first minute of it. I'm 15, and after reading about what went on in her mind it shocked me because I live it every singly day of my life. I know exactly how she felt, it's almost like we're the same person or we share the same mind or something. I, too, have a problem with self esteem and being bullied and just everything down to not being able to look into a mirror, I go through every. singly. day.
My birthday is also December 5th, which I thought was a weird coincidence as well.
Kristina, although I didn't even know her or of her until now, gives me so much strength and I will forever admire her for that. She reminds me that even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes, there are people that care about you and love you so much.
Her story is a lesson for me as I'm recently on the brink of suicide myself. I will continue to keep her in my thoughts and prayers, as I have never been able to relate to someone as much as I have to her.
Chalea Edwards
April 26th 2011
My heart goes out to the Calco family. I lived in the K'zoo area for several years. I wish that the rest of the world could have met Kristina. This breaks my heart and reminds me to pull my little ones closer daily and love them more than the day before.
Amanda H
April 21st 2011
I just have to say, you were such a beautiful girl it seems like you were beautiful on the inside and out, and im so sad you took your own life because of bullying and low self esteem, first glance you can tell your stunning! I wish you could of of realized that.
when I was in highschool I had to deal with bullying too, from boys and girls it happened in grade 8&9 it was horrible, but what kids dont realize is that after highschool that stops and it just doesnt matter. I cant believe kids are still taking their lives because of bullying it makes me so sad. Rest in peace beautiful angel~
Mark Kelly posting this for Jen
April 8th 2011
Jen,
I've signed this memory page in the past. I come by here now and then to see what people say about Kristina. I saw your post. If you ever need someone to talk to, please email me.
Jen
April 8th 2011
You are apsolutlly beautiful. It makes me so sad that you felt the way you did and felt there was no way out. I have struggled with depression all my life, especially during adolence. I'm 20 now, but I still deal with it. I was feeling really bad tonight and visiting your page made me realize that we are never alone and there are so many people that love and care about us, even if we may not feel it. Rest in peace beautiful girl.
Kaleisha Nicholson
February 24th 2011
I want to send my deepest condolences to the family of Kristina Calco and to the families of children who have also lost their lives to Bullycide. I am writing a college paper on school violence which includes cyber bullying, Bullycide and gun violence. In my paper, I am raising awareness about these tragic crimes and showing the devastating outcomes that come with it. I am currently doing research for my paper and I came across Ms. Kristina Calco. She was such a beautiful young lady and her story brings tears to my eyes. I am including Kristina's full story in my paper and hopefully this will help others not only see the warning signs of Bullycide but understand what it is. Life as a teenager can be hard. There are so many changes that a teen goes through, physically and mentally. And I can understand how it can become overwhelming. But it hurts me that teens go through all this pain and sadness and feel that taking their life is the only solution to relieve that pain. Thank you for sharing your daughter’s story and making resources like this available for those who may need it.
Robert Paquette
February 17th 2011
i know it must be tough with her gone but i have obsessed over how a girl so beautiful and smart would take the easy way out. i only wish she had chose better and was still here with her friends and family. if only someone had seen her pain sooner. i was bullied all through highschool but i still to this day can only begin to dream of a girl so gorgeous as kristina. my prayers and thoughts go to her family and may kristina watch over her family always. sincerely, rob
Bridgette Macander
February 9th 2011
I am 12 years old and i have been bullied by girls from 4th grade and up. It is very hard to deal with it. And i know what Kristina went threw. It is terrible. And everytime i hear her story and others i just think why do people act this way everyone is different. I think bullies shouldnt be born if they do this. Kristina i know what your going threw and i am sorry that you had to take your life because of people like this.
R.I.P Kristina:)
Mark Kelly
January 31st 2011
Remember the times when smiles and laughter caused days to fly by on carefree winds. Remember the sunshine and those long walks and talks about nothing meaning little to the mind and everything to the heart. Remember those embraces and kisses on the cheek that spoke silent "I love yous". Remember how from the very first moment you were lost under a spell you cared nothing about being free from. Remember how special you felt being a part of something too big for this world to hold. Remember the first time you saw those eyes looking right through you as if to say we are forever a part of each other. Remember all the special pieces of a beautiful life that made all your trials and troubles seem worth the effort. Remember Kristina cares for each of you with a love no earthly boundary can dissolve. Remember you all were the lucky ones for having such a lovely angel on loan from God. Remember in God's infinite wisdon and love He created a life after this one where no one will ever have to say goodbte again. Kristina waits there in heaven for each of you. A lifetime here is but a blink of an eye there in heaven. She will barely breathe heaven in and you all will be there again by her side for all eternity. Remember Kristina hasn't died but stepped through a door just out of your sight. When you speak to her speak as though she is just in the next room. When you think of her smile and remember only these good things. Kristina certainly left you each enough love in your hearts to carry you through this life. When the sad times come look to the skies and let her love rain down. God bless each of you.
Peter Kremidas
November 27th 2010
Kristina, I was never blessed with the privelege to meet you but i'm always thinking of you. I feel horrible for what you have been through, I'm so sorry that people saw joy in bullying you, i'm even sorrier that you didn't have someone by your side when you truly needed them. I truly wish that we were best friends, that I had helped you when you needed it, that I told you how gorgeous, smart, artistic you were. Looking forward to seeing your beautiful face up there in heaven one day. I'm thankful for everything you have done, i'm also thankful for the mark that you have placed on my heart permenantly. I will never forget you Kristina Calco. Rest In Peace Kristina, with great love, Peter Kremidas.
Pamela
November 10th 2010
a lump in my throat grows as i read Kristina's story. Im 17 years old and have thought of suicide many times, especially when i was younger before my teenage years. Constant verbal abuse left me feeling worthless and at times i was so close. i have never told anyone this and my family has never known but i now feel guilty. i would never want to leave it all behind leaving them thinking why. i dont want to hurt them. i feel alot better now. it been years since that happened. i have learned to love my life, the good times and bad. Kristina, all i can say is that you are gorgeous inside and out. i wish i couldve been that supportive friend you needed. it pains me to read your story that doesnt have a happy ending. baby girl you are in heaven now, with love in your heart and strength in your soul. the world will have to go on without you.
forever with love, Pamela
Ashlie
October 28th 2010
I am only 12 and I am extremely sensitive. I heard about another story similar to this on 20/20 just hours ago except no one committed suicide. I now feel inspired. One day I hope to grow up to become famous and if that goal is achieved I hope to donate alot of the money I earn to charities and spread awareness about bullying and suicide. Kristina was so beautiful, It's hard to believe someone who looks so happy could end her life because of what others were saying. But in saying that I guess after a long period of time being continuosly called names or being talked about rudely you would start believing these things. I get bullied I sometimes feel insecure but I now realise that life is too precious to lose. If only she had realised she truly was beautiful, talented, magnificent and amazing in every way she could of led a long, healthy life and achieved her goal of becoming a scientist. Soar through the heavens with the angels and maybe one day we shall meet (:
mariquita
October 10th 2010
I still sit here in shock looking at the pictures of this beautiful obviously amazing little girl and just can't imagine anyone wanting to make her feel anything but special. My heart breaks for her and her family. I have a 13 year old daughter who has dealth with being bullied and I could never imagine life without her. I pray everyday that she can stay strong. Children are cruel and I don't know if they realize their actions and words can hurt this deeply. To Kristina's family, this is a beautiful thing you are doing to keep her memory alive and to open people's eyes. I commend you and will continue to pray your family everyday for the rest of my life. Your daughter was a true angel.
Lindsay boffa
October 1st 2010
I'm almost 27 years old and I can still feel the pain that I experienced when I was in junior high and on from others bullying me. I remember coming home crying, seeing "Lindsay B is a scrub" written all over the tables in my 7th grade science class, being called anorexic, and daydreaming of the day that I would be accepted for being me. I never did anything to deserve the treatment that I got. I thought about killing myself many times in my earlier days... for those of you that think that Kristina was crazy or stupid for what she did... looking back now I feel foolish for those thoughts I once had, but totally know why she thought what she did. Teenagers are horrible to one another. In every middle and high school there are kids that try to make another's lives a literate nightmare. I dreaded going to school every day. I hated myself and I beleived the things that those kids said about me. Thanks to them, I am still fighting this and will probably continue to the rest of my life. I now life the life of a successful person, but behind my shell is years of abuse... I smile at the end of the day now though. Some of those morons that tortured me a long time ago have found me on FB and feel that we should connect on there. I have and I've looked to see what they are up to... believe me, if you are a teenager that is getting bullied, believe me... you will get your cake later in life. Many of those morons have let themselves go, have kids out of wedlock, didn't graduate college or even go, and are living in their glory days from junior or high school because that's all they have. Keep trying to be the best that you can be. It wll truely pay off in the end. I promise. Don't give up and please don't give into their shit... I know how hard it is and how much hatred you have toward whatever group is tormenting you... I carry it today, but it makes me stronger. If anyone reading this needs a friend or needs to talk about this, please feel free to email me. You have a friend that knows exactly what you're going though.
Daniela Robles
September 16th 2010
It is amazing to think that so many people have stopped to read about Kristina, and that many more will be touched by the story of this beautiful, tragic young girl. I too, as many others before me have written, was a victim of bullying for almost 14 years and I also attempted against my life (ironically, it was one year before Kristina's departure, January 2005) but the death of a dear friend of mine, on the same night of my failed attempt, by the same matters that moved me to it (depression), made my life turn around. He did what I dared not to and, at first, I felt like a coward and a loser for not gaving the guts to "end it all". But when I saw and felt the pain of knowing I could have changed something for him and didn't, it was like realizing how close I had been to the edge of the cliff. After his memorial service in school I returned everyday to light up the candles until they consumed completely, and there I decided that I would live not only for myself, but also for him, for his death had taken away my desire to die too. It's been hard to go on, to accept that I can't be perfect or beautiful but that people love me this way nonetheless. I've gone through that road Kristina traveled and all I can think is I don't want this fate to happen to anyone out there ever.
Mexico is a country where bullying and abuse are constant, but that doesn't have a way to fight them off, where nobody really cares about this matter and things are left to be solved by parents of teens alone. I love my country, my people and I really think there is a way to fight this horrible habit off, like Kristina's parents have done with organizations and life-experiences on the internet. I know it's hard, bit I actually want to start something like this here, where teens can find help on the words of others and hear their wounds before they too stand at the edge of the cliff.
Kristina: we never met but I too think you were a beautiful, gracious girl with the potential to be everything you wanted to be. Your death has not been in vain, for many, many have learned something from your lovely, saddened eyes. I will too, not give up despite the odds and fight to make a change for teenagers around me and everywhere, until bullying is erradicaded not only from Mexico, but from all the world.
Algún día podremos cantar victoria Kristina, hasta entonces ayudanos a salir adelante, niña hermosa de ojos marrón.
"One day we'll all be gone, but lullabyes go on and on. They never die, that's how you and I will be."
Billy Joel
Anonymous
September 15th 2010
I can almost relate to this story, However I wasn't such a well good person. through out elementry school around abotu 3rd grade I got into fighting and not like a bulyl fighting someone messing with me and me giving them a good old fashioned passionate ass whooping (which kristina's bullies would've gotten if I ever saw it) I however had gotten to a point where fighting just didn't cut it anymore and in middle school I swore off fighting for what I thought was for good. I went through middle school constantly being harrased and my violent tendancies led me to write in my journal about several things which i belive myself would not lead to people feeling sorry but instead think "thank god he never pulled any of these things off, by god there would be news reports and memorials for days that sick f***!" In 9th grade I had dropped the whole violent attitude not by choice but merely my mental condition(manic depression) hitting hard with the stop of my adhd medication, so around 10th grade, S*** really hit the fan I began dating girls, and countless times I attempted but failed at endig my own life one time merely by pure luck which was more in 11 grade, I had attempted to use a knife and not a slow peacfull way out as the medication never seemed to work. I now have a scar that is mearely a hair strand away from a vein in my arm. SO in a way crying is good had it not been for the tears and not pure depression with no tears there is no doubt in my mind that I would have struck the vein when stabbing my wrist open. It had blurred my vision so much that i had missed so little that the only effect that passed was passing out from a combination of the pain meds and bleeding out. I had awoken 2 hours afterwards and realized it was time to start a drastic change in my life. It's people like this girl who I aim to help and hope that one day I can make a diffrence in peoples life through music. I am of course no christian but I have learned with the simple rule, as long as you follow it like a religion, to live life to it's fullest and make life what you want it to be can be a real life saver because even nowadays I still have suicidal tendancies and even without medication (whih I refuse to take on the basis that is makes it worse) I still have a overall happy life. I refuse to remincesse about past times and past hurts (even though just like any normal person it will catch up once in a while) I still manage to push my self through, I am also proud to say I am cut free for 2 and a half years now and my scars have began to heal (besides the wirst one which I hope never heals as it is a constant reminder of why I decided to start to change my ways) I will leave with one final message to parents... If you see cuts on your childs wrists it could mean they most likely just want attention or they really are suffering but the place parents never ever ask about is the legs so look for the signs they arn't hard to miss and by the time you do notice if you don't pay attention to your child you will have the horrible fate of finding your child like kristinas parents did... so please parents pay attention to your kids and talk to them everyday youa s their parents should know better then anyone when they arn't havign a good day. I love my mother because if it wasn't for her advice and wisdom she shares and the life lessons that I know today that she taught me as she raised me I would have the same fate as this young girl. ANd reember don't jsut tell your kid to stop cutting because belive it or not it is additive after a while instead help them through it hiding the knives around you house won't matter kids are smart they'll think of anything to just get in that cutting craving
Gabe
September 12th 2010
I just can't imagine a young girl this beautiful could see herself that way. I don't even know what to say, it's so tragic.
Francesca Carlino
September 12th 2010
Kristina if only you knew how pretty you really were! This story really touched me, I guess in a way Kristina reminds me of myself! I have also gone through bullying and know how hurtful it can be ! I wish I could have been your friend Kristina and helped you get through this , I would've tried to help and stuck up for you infront of bullies! Bless you I can't believe a lovely,beautiful, graceful soul like you had to end your life to end your pain.
Rest in peace angel !
Lots of love and sympathy to your family
Francesca
xxx
P.S: You were so beautiful I wish I could have been there for you :'( even though I never got the honor to meet you I'm still sad to know you're not living a happy life!
Petter
September 10th 2010
This is so sad.. I don't know how anyone could call u ugly or anything like that! u are beautiful! i hope ur safe and happy where u are now
Justin Chander
August 24th 2010
Your story was such a sad story. You were truly beautiful, and always will be. What they did was unforgiveable!
Lily Rivera
August 14th 2010
Kristina because of reading your story I will make sure I tell my daughter how beautiful she is. You were so beautiful. My prayers are with you and your family.
Coraima T.
August 12th 2010
Kristina,
Wow your story really touched my heart. How can people be so cruel. I my-self went 15 years of being called ugly by my fellow classmates n even my mother and sister. I am 16 going on 17 now and I know i am beautiful sometimes there are time iI feel like I am not but then I think about good things. I know how you were feeling. If only you had found someone that made you feel as beautiful as you are inside and out maybe your life could have been different. Their were times i thought of suicide myself but I looked for my reason to live I had people that loved me and a baby brother that i had to look out for. As for your family I am so very sorry for your lost you had a very very very beautiful daughter and I wish that things could have turned out different. I know she is in a better place now and may one day i get to meet you in heaven kristina. with much love Coraima T.
jenna
July 30th 2010
Kristina,
You were beautiful and I wish I could find the words to explain to you how much your story touched me, and how much it changed my life and prevented me from doing stupid stuff. It turned my whole vision on life around.
I am sure you're in a better place and I will continue to pray for your family.
shruti
July 28th 2010
Kristina,
I don't know who you are, or rather were. You sounded like a beautiful person full of hope. I'm only a teenager myself and I'm doing a report on perfection and suicide. Your death will not be in vain and I will feature you in my speech. Your death may stop many others. Rest in peace.
Nicolas
July 10th 2010
I barely read this story today. July 10th, 2010. I had no idea who kristina was, I was surfing the net and came across some videos on youtube where Kristina's pictures were posted. So I looked her up, read her story and feel so sorry for her family. I hope god brings you peace and allows you to move on. I was bullied as well and my life as a teenager was a living hell. I am now27 but those teen years have left so many scars that will never go away. As many of the people who have shared their memories, I also know what Kristina went through and if only there was a way to make us realize that it's ok to talk, it's ok to tell people what we are/went through to avoid this tragic ending. Bullying HAS TO STOP! I hope that the "kids" who hurt her so much, will live with this remorse for the rest of their lives, or go through the same with their kids.
Brian Hoffmann
July 3rd 2010
I am just coming out of a dissociative disorder.. after 25 years... the first thing God brought me was the Phoebe prince story.. and from their Kristina's. In a way.. her story and mine are almost identical at that age.. even her logged mood changes until her death... I have learned a great deal about myself, and the personal closer im working on from my past from Kristina's story...
It has been an honer to have visited Kristina's History
I Found a word that I think describes Kristina.. " Trust".. and this can only come from God... Im not surprised that God brought me to Kristina's story above so many others to learn from..
The Friendly Light of God seems to beam from her in her pictures...
What a wonderful girl.. R.I.P. Kristina... and Thank you... I Pray your in Gods arms everynight...
Dermot, Ireland
June 22nd 2010
I may not have known Kristina personally but I can fully relate to what she was going through. It's very sad, this world can be so bad. Her story touched me, her kindness and generosity, her humanitarian nature, she was an angel. She is a shining light for people all over the world.
God bless, peace.
Shannon
June 22nd 2010
R.I.P Kristina.
By the sounds you were truly beatiful.
I really do feel the most for the parents.
This is so sad, bullying needs to stop.
I got bullied too, it aint nice.
I am truly sorry for your loss, at least you have all this support.
Shannon. :D
:) x
Crystal Adams
May 28th 2010
Truly unbelievable.... How anyone could hurt such an incredibly amazing soul such as her, that is absolutely apalling, and dispicable!
It's hard to believe she would have been almost my age now, my birthday was in 1989 too, I'm only 10 months older than she is. My birthday is Feb 16th, 1989. I truly wish I could have met her, she sounds like she was one of those really rare and amazing souls like my best friends.
Her story is so similar to mine in so many ways, starting in sixth grade is where it all began for me... After coming back from a vacation to New York City I found out my "best friend" had spread horrible rumours about me, and turned the entire middle school against me. It was one of the absolute most devastating and lonely times of my life. Suddenly everyone hated me, and everytime I said hi to anyone they would call me a bitch, and made my life a living hell.
Then in 7th grade I was sexually, physically, and mentally abused by one of my first boyfriends, who was fourteen when I was twelve. At that time I had absolutely no self-esteem anymore...
After all those years of physical and mental abuse I ended up hating myself, and ended up abusing myself as well...
The scars it's left will never fully go away, and it's devastating to look back even to this day, at 21. Numerous times I had seriously comtemplated suicide, so I really understand a lot of what Kristina went through, I only hope her soul is finally in a place of peace at last...
Rock
May 21st 2010
When i saw this story yesterday that really touched me because i know what it means to be bullied everyday.I know what it means to end up everything... Still last night i couldn't sleep because one mind just bugged me.Why i didn't knew her in real life ? maybe i could help her ?... maybe it's just stupid thought but still i just wanted to say that...I will never forget this story about this gorgeous girl and her cruel life and if there's some god i will always pray for her soul...Stay strong Kristina family and her friends.
Yours Faithfully
16 years old Rock from Lithuania.
Elizabeth
May 15th 2010
I came across Kristinas story and I'm terribly sorry for what happened to her. Someone I knew, not personally, just commited suicide. She jumped over a bridge onto an interstate and died of impact. The same thing happened to her (bullying wise).
I wish I could have known Kristina to talk to her about how it isn't worth it. When I was put on medication for trying to commit suicide my mom told me "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I also saw how much pain I caused my family and friends. I was beginning my 9th grade year when I tried to do that.
Whenever I start feeling down and upset, I just remember everything I have accomplished and how I have such a bright future.
I'll be in 10th grade next year and I honestly regret trying to commit suicide. I wouldn't be able to try and help people with problems like the ones I have, play volleyball, or be with my family and dogs.
I also am looking at Kristinas pictures and she is absolutely gorgeous, even when she was young. The people who told her she wasn't are crazy. She sounds like she was a really nice and smart girl too.
Kristinas Family and Friends,
I'm sorry for your loss, and I know it's hard. Just keep your head up. Share her story with people who are having the same problems. You could end up saving a child's life.
Nicole Donaldson
May 9th 2010
I didn't know Kristina, but I wish I could've been there to give her a hug and help her through the hard time she was going through.
WE MISS YOU KRISTINA
Peggy
April 21st 2010
I was asked in a class to create a page and tell real life stories of bullying suicides. I've probably looked at about every page on Kristina. I wrote about her in my page too.
I lost a friend to this also. It's definately a hard process to go through. His happened very close to how Kristina's did. I've sat and looked at these pictures and to Kristinas mom... you have changed many lives by what you've wrote about her. I was touched by the story. I'm actually 15 now, I've never thought about it till one of my friends did it. I guess I wouldn't think of doing that, like Kristina I'm a 4.0 student, not that great a sports, I have friends, but I don't always see myself as "popular". Also like her I see myself in many ways like she did. Not pretty, fat, not good at things. But I know what it put me through when I lost Derek, and his family through. I know that it killed you to think that you won't see your gorgeous daughter till you go to heaven too. I know that I might be a little behing on this story, but the way yuo explained every detail, really got to me.
Kristina,
As you probably watch down on your family every day, and are up there going to college, and doing everything you were meant to do, I read your story and say, if only I could have a friend like you. I know I don't know you and I realize everyone on this page says that their so much like you.. i don't think that everyones alike... I'm just really amazed by what you accomplished in such a short time, and to think i'm in your place about now. It's so hard.. high school, guys, friends... and the way that now, most of them have probably commented on here about how good of friends you were. I think some people feel as if you "killed" yourself but really your just on a vacation because now your away from the horrible things.. and you don't have to deal with it. I guess someday maybe I'll meet you. I'll be thinking about you, and your family. God Bless.
Ari Smithee
April 13th 2010
I feel like I really connected with the girl. I am alot like her. Shy, caring, have alot of goals. Like her, I want to be perfect by a certain time and I told myself that if I wasn't, I would do something drastic. I got over depression and know that I would never kill myself anymore. Anyways, when I found this site and saw the pictures of her, I couldn't believe how beautiful she is ! I couldn't believe she saw herself as ugly because I would not mind looking like her at all ! I wish the best to her family and hope that they will be ok and know that they will see her again some day
atalibarajas
April 12th 2010
Hi Im atalia barajas i did not know her but i came across this girls story and i know what u guys are going though ive myself lost a bestfriend of my own....
to this beautiful girl to not know what she left behind...family friends... people that love her...
her story really touched me!!
i wish the best for guys.
PPL LIKE THAT(bulies) MAKE ME SICK..!
Brittany Lofland
March 28th 2010
Hello! I didn't know Kristina or your family, but, I am deeply touched by her story. I am so greatly sorry for your loss and will be praying for you and Kristina. I first heard about Kristina's story on the International Miss Tourism Pageant website. It got me interested into finding out more about Kristina and other children affected by bullying. My heart is deeply saddened by her tragic death and the death of others affected by bullying. I was bullied in the 7th grade, and it was by the grace of God that it didn't affect me and that I am still alive today. I did deal with mild depression, unfortunately, and still sometimes feel the effects, however, I am everyday recovering and looking forward to a brighter future everyday. I compete in pageants and have many passions that I would love to be involved in through pageant systems. However, this one really hit home. I couldn't help but think that I could have been Kristina. But, like I said before, it was only through the grace of God and my loving, wondeful mother that I am still alive and well today. Thank you for sharing your story, and I want you to know that I am going to make teen bullying and depression my life mission to stop. Again, I am SO, SO sorry for this terrible loss! My heart is hurting now for you and Kristina. May God bless you and Kristina and may He embrace you in His loving arms.
Lauren Estes
March 22nd 2010
I didn't know her but im very interested in storys like these. young people like kristina had so much ahead of them..reading there stories and how patheticly mean peoeple were to her is un real to me. i cant see why someone so beautiful like her self would even let people challenge her with such words. and the boys...well they dont know what they missed because that girl was tramendously gorgeous! anyone to think other wise couldnt be more wrong..jealousy is a nice term for what they were! any one that drives a young lady to death should feel like absolute hell!!!! even 5 years later!
if i were the people that continuously were so mean gosh i would feel like the worst human being alive! but i would never be them! i would never wish missery on anyone. for her parents i keep you in my prayers and i would like you to know you are strong people! to loose a loved one and be so open to keep her amazabilities alive! my heart goes out to you and her friends
Mrs. Chris Linden
March 12th 2010
Dear parents,
Being a parent myself I can’t begin to understand the grief you are experiencing. I read all that I could about your daughter and she was a beautiful person inside/out. It’s devastating to learn that our children miss the true beauty of who they are because others cloud their judgment with insensitive words. Words are powerful they have built and destroyed countries so I know Kristina was carrying a huge burden because I was once there myself.
Dear Kristina I wish I was there to help you through your pain. I wish I could have said to you….. The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering. May your soul be at peace and filled with happiness.
Suzy Smith
March 10th 2010
"Mean People Suck".
This child is beautiful! The UGLY ONES are the ones who said these awful things to her on a daily basis. And frankly , saying that these people are "ugly" is being NICE. They are and were .. WORSE than ugly.
Beauty has NOTHING to do with the way a person looks on the OUTSIDE but what they "look like on the INSIDE".
If only Kristina could have grasped this concept before she made such an awful mistake. If only Kristina could have understood that mean people are not worth giving them "time and space in your head" before she made such an awful mistake. If only. I am so very sorry to hear that another one of our teens in this world had to experience this type of bullying attacks. Anyone caught doing this to another person should be punished to the fullest extent of the law. Teen or no teen .. put them in jail and let them sit where they belong .. along with the other nasty, no good criminals of this world. In my most humble opinion , they are no better than the person who steals, rapes or kills. Because , that is EXACTLY what they've done.
Bullying steals a person's self confidence , it rapes them of their innocence , and kills their self esteem. As bad if not worse than actual murder.
I have often said and will continue to say .. that if the laws today were like the laws of yesteryears , we could allow the general public *loose* on someone who has committed such a crime as bullying. Simply allow the public to do the punishing. Maybe then these fools would think twice about doing something such as this.
May your lovely Spirit soar through the Heavens with the Stars, Kristina !
Amy
February 20th 2010
I recently came across Kristina's story, and I could never express how sorry I am for your loss.
I am very much aware of what Kristina was going through, as I have faced very similar experiences in my past. I used to be bullied all throughout high school, was called ugly by a group of boys, got teased over and over again. I used to think of suicide every single day, the pain was just too much. I wanted to be perfect, because I thought that was the only way people would come to accept me. It hurt really badly, and I attempted suicide on my last year of highschool. I was lucky not to succeed but faced serious health issues for the following months. I am thankful I survived, and for the past year I've been as supportive as I can to teenagers who are dealing with depression, bulling and suicidal thoughts. I want to help them the way I wanted to be helped.
May Kristina's soul rest in peace. She seems to have been a wonderful, talented girl. And looking at her pictures, she was beautiful.
7th grade student
February 9th 2010
i couldnt stand loseing one of my baest friends and even though i dont know you guys im so sorry. That is really sad and i too can see why she felt that way. 7 th grade is very hard!
February 9th 2010
im so sorry
Mrs. Allie Rood
January 30th 2010
I found your story online and my heart aches to think of your loss. I do not know you or your family, but I am a mother, and imagining your grief brings me to tears.
I would like to say some things to people who think they are ugly. I have always thought I am ugly. In 7th grade, a boy tormented me so badly with words about how ugly I am and how I don't deserve to live that I became physically sick. I never told anyone about my pain. I have never forgotten it.
As an adult I have had to ask myself, why did I put so much stock in what that boy said? Why did I believe that what he said is true? And even if I am ugly, it does not portray the person I am inside. There are ugly people in this world. I am sorry, but some of us just don't have the looks that is all over magazines and television. However, looks is not all there is in life. How a person is inside counts so much more. Your body can be beautiful at 17 and after 3 kids be overweight and have saggy breasts. You can have perfect skin at 21, and at 41 get adult acne, or have an accident that leaves terrible scars. Who we are inside is what is important. Just because I am not attractive enough to be on a magizine cover does not mean that I have no worth. Whats more, it does not mean that I have nothing to give to others. Being "ugly" has made me very sensitive and compassionate to people who are "different", ugly, disabled, hopeless.
My hearts desire it to help others, because in that moment, when our eyes meet and I see their gratitude for unconditional acceptance and love, my heart overflows with joy, and nothing matters at that moment except that I have made a difference in someones life. I wish I had known this at age 13. I hope it makes a difference for someone reading this.
And to Kristina's parents: may you find peace and know that your daughter is in God's hands. I am so sorry for your loss that can never be found. However, I know joy is still possible for those who suffer and grieve.
Deveny
January 29th 2010
A year ago I came across a video on youtube of Kristina and other people that commited suicide because of bullying.
I've watched videos that told Kristina's stories.
It made me realize that it could happen to anyone.
It's strange such a beautiful girl could think she's ugly.
I hope the people that made her think that will burn in hell.
I'll never forget Kristina and her story, even though I've never known her.
My heart goes out to her family and friends.
Steven
January 5th 2010
Depression is a scary thing, and no one should ever, ever have to go through it. Every life is precious, and it's so sad how mean people can be. Kristina was a beautiful girl and I hope she has found peace. It breaks my heart that she said nice girls finish last. For anyone out there who feels that way, not everyone in the world is as mean and horrible as those who bullied Kristina. There is light in the darkness, you just have to keep searching for it. Rest in peace.
January 2nd 2010
I just web browsing on youtube until I saw the name Kristina Calco. I couldn't believe my eyes that such a beautiful angel was bullied. I can't relate to the fact of being bullied but I have seen bulling and was a bully once around 3rd grade. Back in third grade I was tight friends with a girl who was the leader of the bully group and me the co-captain. We would seriously scare the whole third grade class and skip classes like the rebels we were. I was able to beat up anyone, but when your the leader and cpatain you got your people to do the job. Its was fun for awhile until I saw a girl bleading through her whole face but you had to act like nothing would matter. When the group left to go some where else I said "I had to go to the bathroom you can leave without me!" I ran back to help the girl and then took her to the nurse. The nurse was shocked and reported the incident to the principal. We (the bullies) were sent to the office and my mom was right there next to me (Oh Snap!) From there my bullying days were over. I moved to new jersey and my role became standing up for the victim. When I first came to jersey I made friends with my besties and other friends. One of my besties was a target for bullies, not until I came and just started to stand up to those bullies. They hated my guts but they wouldn't dare to make fun of me only one time some kid he probably had a crush on me and
Eddie Brewer
December 9th 2009
Hey,
It was really tragic what happened to Kristina. I know I haven't met Kristina but I would like to say a few words to honor her. Kristina was a smart, brilliant, shy, caring, thoughtful, and active person. Her tragic death had a powerful impact on people that has never met her before. I was watching her story on YouTube by Zweeps, I almost cried everytime. I watched her video like 10 times because its so sad. Them boys that was bothering her must have just been jealous of her and her nice and neat 4.0 GPA, and BIG dreams for finding a cure for Cancer, and AIDS. I admire her for being so smart, brilliant, shy, caring, thoughtful, and active. Beings I know that someone like Kristina has committed such a horrible accusation it makes my heart ache because I too love everyone and everything just as Kristina did. Them boys should be punished severely for making Kristina feel as she did. No one should get away with such behaviour, in my world treating someone so badly so that they commit suicide is murder in my book. I wish to meet this awesome person Kristina Calco when I reach my time to be before the golden gates of Heaven.
Love:
Eddie Brewer
Ben R
December 4th 2009
Some cosmic force drove me to discover Kristina's life on December 3rd, 2009, at my home within an hour's drive of Portage. I don't know if it's a sign or a coincidence, but my heart is very full at this moment. It's such a shame that some of these children seemed destined to become matrys for this cause, but this girl will live on through the people, like me, that come to know of her and her story. All my hopes to her family and friends, who were blessed to know her.
Brandi
October 28th 2009
My heart goes out to the family and friends of Kristina Calco. I read about her story online. My story is different but I understand the depression and saddness she must have felt. When I was in school I was raped and had horrible thoughts about myself because of what I went through. The gossip and lies about me and my situation from classmates were unbearable and the school did nothing about what the classmates did to me mentally. I know the pain of saddness and the depths it can take you. My heart truely goes out to you Kristina Calco. Like I said our stories of depression may differ but I know the pain all the same. Shine bright beautiful star that your story may help others who feel or have felt the depths of depression.
-Brandi C. Dunaway-Garcia
Liz
October 25th 2009
I have no idea who this beautiful girl is, however, she is two months younger than me. I am saddened to think that such a pretty girl thought that boys knew what they were talking about. I am so sorry that she didn't listen to her friends who told her that she was gorgeous. Kristina looks like a model, and I just wish that she was here so I could personally tell her that. I pray that you, as her parents, continue to share her story and prevent another beautiful child from doning this
cynthu
October 22nd 2009
may her soul rest in peace...i dont know her but if i would have met her i would have said to her u r really one of d beautifulst person i have seen
Koto Ayodeji
September 23rd 2009
To the parents:
The world has lost a very special person, that sweet little face says it all really! Learning about Kristina has touched me deeply and I hope to devote some of my life to addressing school bullying, perhaps setting up a club in England for bullied kids teaching them about how bullies operate and how to combat them.
Those bestowed with Kristina's gifts: profound emotional sensitivity, creative brilliance, kindness and impulsiveness, are uniquely suseptible to the mankind's malevolence and our schooling should deal with this, I witnessed disgusting things at school. How many Columbines can we utimately afford?
I remember she has said: 'You can't imagine the things they said to me.....they were terrible, really terrible..'
Her case highlights that there must be something intrisically wrong with western society today if a special person like Kristina is driven to even consider such a decision. We will ALL be worse off for it.
Koto
Savannah Underwood
September 19th 2009
This is a tragic and heartbreaking story. i wish this had never-ever happened. i feel terrible just reading. also, i swear i'm not making this up, my friend lily bailey said that Kristina called her and her other friend ashley freeny before she hung herself . if you dont believe me, email me, and ill give you the details. :'( i feel so guilty for not telling her parents :(
Christian
September 11th 2009
Somehow while browsing on Youtube, I came across a bullying video and saw this terrible story of these teens taking their own lives because of the pain and torment they suffered at the hands of other people. It's ironic that Kristina thought she was "ugly", because after seeing her photo on the Youtube video, I said to myself how beautiful she was and didn't fit the profile for the typical teenage bully victim. When I started reading about her, it made me almost sick to my stomach seeing such a wonderful and obviously talented person taking her own life because of the influence others had on her life. She clearly had a very bright future, had a good heart, and as I already said, she was physically beautiful as well. There was a very similar case here where I live 2 years ago which was disgusting, and I can only imagine the hell being a parent and having to discover your child dead in their bedroom at their own hands. My heart goes out to the family and loved ones of Kristina. What a terrible and heartbreaking story!
Darren!
September 4th 2009
i saw kristina through a youtube page , and i will say i'm absolutely appalled at what happened. Kristina is a beautiful girl, and she has soo much in store for her in life. There's no way she was ugly or anything because ... she definitely looks like a wonderful person. She most definitely is. :) no matter what happens, kristina will be sorely missed by those dear to her. This is a great loss :(.... this girl is most definitely special in her very own way !
Kristena
August 16th 2009
wow, i know what it is like to be bullied. in elementary school i was bullied for loving animals...YES, loving animals. people made fun of me because i always talked about animals and dogs and how much i loved them. They would say to me "you are so stupid, why do u like animals so much? what's so great about them?" "you are a freak" "you are dumb" "go play with you imaginary animal friends" people would say all those things to me. i hardly said anything back. one time me and this girl were playing basketball in 5th grade. she got mad cuz i was on her team and i was "making them lose" i was never good at sports in elementary school, and people always got mad if i was on there team and didn't do something right. in middle school, i was made fun of because i had severe acne, which is gone now (i am a junior in high school) my acne was horrible..ALLL OVER MY FACE. people called me the following: "ugly" "pizza face" "freak" "gross" and some people would say "why dont u go and wash your face?" or they would talk behind my back and say "she needs to wash off her pimples!" i wud cry alot....but my friends and family heled me through it, i wud always let my feelings out. I WISH THAT KRISTINA CALCO COULD OF GOTTEN THROUGH IT. i am so sorry for this girl...she is GORGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL, SMART (i wish i was that smart lol) and SUCH A CARING PERSON. i can relate to her so much and we are the same wen it comes to being sesitive and caring for people and being nice to people. REST IN PEACE
samantha rezachek
August 5th 2009
i have depression.. anger issues, and im suicidal.. someitmes i wish someone culd help me and idk its all so confussing wen your in that certain modd its almost impossible to get out of it.. kristina's situation makes me think alot.. and i have also learned alot too.. this really does mean alot to me.. i wish i coulda been her friend and went to school with her.. becuz if i would have seen and heard the things ppl said and have done i would have baked her up.. they would have had to get threw me before they touch her. rest in peace kristina
Paige
August 3rd 2009
This story puts me to tears because i too can relate to it. Your daughter is so beautiful and its so sad to know she ended her life over bullying. I was suicidal and still suffer from long term depression and im only 19. She sounds like a wonderful person and the type of person we need more of in school and in general. People honestly do not know how bad it hurts to be called names. I know when i look in the mirror all i see is uglyness and just fat, but my friends tell me different how im so beautiful and i need to be open and not be shy anymore. Sometimes i feel like they are just saying that to make me feel better about myself. I've been bullied since elementary school and all throughout middle school till about 9th grade when ive done nothing but kill them with kindess. I still suffer from random bullying and try to deal with it. I send my prayers out to your family and your daughter who seems like an extremly incredible person. RIP Kristina
Maria
August 1st 2009
I am from the U.K, and first came across Kristina on a youtube video that was posted about her. I was shocked, outraged at her suffering, and what she'd had to endure. and i cried so much. Katrina was not just beautiful, she simply stunning. Inside and out. I have since read much about her. Inspite of the loss of your beautiful daughter, you are doing all you can to inform and help others. YOU are an inspiration, Mrs Calco. and i'm certain your daughter would be very proud of YOU.
Rest in peace, Angel.
Mike
July 28th 2009
I just found your daughters story and I had to write. My daughter was born August 22 1990 so they were close in age. We changed high schools because of the bullying; twice. My daughter ended up in therapy, she happen to mention that she didn't want to be here ; at first we thought she ment at home but we realized that she was talking of being on earth with the bullies and the regular teen problems. Thank goodneess we were able to intervene. My prayers go out to you you, her friends and family. My daughters problems started in 2005, freshmen year HS. thankfully we still have her.
thanks for listening
I am a middle school teacher and I see bullying go on, I do my best to stop it but I only have them for 40 min a day.
again my prayers are with you
Mike McGinniss
Jamie
July 24th 2009
Kristina's story really reminds me of my own. i guess i have a lot of hobbies people say im good at and im not as ugly as they say, but people still love hurting me. i almost did suicide after my only boyfriend who was like my life broke up with me, im guessing cuz his friends didnt approve. the thing that stopped me while i stood over a suicide note with a knife, was the thought of a song i love about a girl who killed herself and left her ex boyfriend and family in pieces. ive never met kristina but she sounds like an awesome person who i'd be friends with and my heart goes out to her relatives. i am now writing a song about kristina after hearing this sad story.
Mikayla
July 20th 2009
I never had the pleasure of meeting this beautiful, outstanding, and seemingly AMAZING young lady..but I really wish I had. Like everyone seems to be saying; she simply didn't realize how beutiful and wonderful she really was. It broke my heart in so many ways to read her story and know that the WORLD has suffered such a great loss.
Fly high, Kristina..but never leave us.
Stephanie
July 15th 2009
I didnt know who this gorgeous girl kristina was,But I do know her story has impacted my life very much.I cried very much reading her life story. I too was a victim of bullying and felt a deep depression, But thankfully I have friends and family that love me very much. Ive come to learn that I am beautiful inside and out and no one should judge me : )
Kristina, You were a Beautiful,Smart,and Caring girl to say the least, and you will be missed by many.You are now with God and the other angels and continue to spread your love.
May you R.I.P..and God bless your family : )
iliana garza
May 19th 2009
I do not know who Kristina was but i know her story has truly impacted my life, she was more than beautiful and her smile was breath taking. her story will always be with me, and i will share about who she was! May God bless her family!!
Julia Getz
May 13th 2009
i'm a junior in high school and for our junior research paper we are doing it on bullying. i was sitting next to my friend in the lib. and i saw her on this web site and she was kind of reading bits and pieces of the story so i asked her for the link so i could start reading it. i got half way through it and the bell rang. so i went off to the next period and couldn't even focus. kristina was soo pretty i read that people called her ugly and i turned to my friend and i said i would hate to see what pretty is cause she took my breath away when i saw her. i've always been a person who tries and stands up for people who are being picked on. not only for the fear that they may try and take their own life but also for the fear they could take all ours but also cause i don't like seeing people hurt and i know it really does hurt them inside even if they don't show it. there are two boys in my school ones is a senior and one is a junior. they get picked on everyday cause the are slower. i sat back in the audiotorium one day and watched about 5 wrestlers pick on the junior boy who is slow but still gets out on the mat and tried his hardest. i said something a few times but i'm not miss popular eaither so not many of them listen to little old me, i wish i could do more and i wish that bullies see how they really so affect the people they push around. there was a boy in my school last year who killed himself. we have no idea why? i wasn't that close to him but i saw him in school all the time and alot of my friends were really close with him and he seemed happy he was a redneck(some of the most popular boys in are school are hicks) so its not like he was bullied but i'm not sure if he had an at home bullied life but it can really take a toll on that person and my heart goes out to kristina's family and all the families like hers! but sharing your stories like this can really help open peoples eyes up
Claris
May 13th 2009
My friend was on this website and gave me the link to this website. I felt so sad after reading this. In the pictures, she is absolutely gorgeous and she looks very kind and caring. How could she not have seen what she was? I also get bullied but I don't pay any attention to it because what they are saying isn't true. Even though I never knew Kristina, I bet that what the other peope were saying weren't true either. People fail to see what effect they are having on the people they are bullying. They need to realise that by doing that, you are not only portraying yourself as an idiot but also lowering the other person's self-esteem. May god let Kristina rest in peace, and may she see that what she did was wrong. She could have easily gotten help from a couselor or principal. Not to blame her or anything just to point it out.
Kaila
May 11th 2009
I was watching a video slideshow on YouTube and when I saw her picture I immediately stopped the video. It made me sad to see that a really pretty girl with a 4.0 and everything going for her could suddenly be gone. We have never met, but, one thing's for sure you would've been my BFF! I'm one of those who strive for perfection too! I know how you feel many girls treat me so bad... I just can' believe it... My condolences to your family. You didn't deserve this Kristina. Rest in peace, Kristina.
melissa
April 29th 2009
hi
today at school we were learning about bullying and the teacher showed us a slide show about people who killed them selfs for bullying when i saw kristina picture i was thinking how could someone soooo pretty do that to her self iv been through alot also and i tryed killing myself once manythings happened to me and i didnt know what to do when i read kristina story i cried alot i didnt know her but i felt like i did and just reading it helped me not to think about that again im really sorry for your lost i hope you and your family are doing ok GOD bless you..
-melissa-
Julie
April 26th 2009
What a beautiful young lady she was. My daughters best friend took her life at the same age in 2007 and it so affected so many people, and had we all been in tune to her myspace and her sad poetry maybe we could have helped her. I felt like I had lost a daughter. She, Dakota, was a loner and it was just her and my daughter and one other friend that were always together. She felt mostly alone and isolated and depressed and took her own life. It is so hard to be a teenager. My daughter is still in therapy and is in a mental health awareness group for teens and also does the Out of the Darkness Walks. She has decided to go into this field so she can help teens and hopefully save a life. I was so afraid she would take her life after she had lost her only friend. I sat here and read Kristinas story and it makes me so sad, she was extremely beautiful and had so much going for her....people, and not just kids, do not realize the power their words have one people. To look at her pictures, she certianly looked like she reached her goals of looking pretty much perfect.....
liz
April 24th 2009
She was such a gorgeous girl and would have been the same age i am now, it makes me very sad that she didn't believe that she was beautiful. The people that bullied her were probably jealous that she had all the qualities that they didn't have. I really wish that people would just learn to accept each other for who they are :(
April 13th 2009
Wow. Kristina was really beautiful and its sad to see how people actually mistreated her. For this report in school, I wrote about School Violence and in it I mention Kristina and how people feel trapped inside. I wish I knew Kristina because she seems like a bright girl.
Josh Instrall
April 12th 2009
Hi, im from the UK in england and im 16 now, your daughter was very beautiful, it saddens me so much to know that she was bullied. i hope you and your family are doing well.
regards, Josh
B.W.Nickles
April 12th 2009
I didnt know KRIS but i feel like I know her now. This is truely a sad story. I look at the pics and she was turning into a beautiful girl. She was pure and honest and I wish there were more like her. Its a shame that she had to deal with jerks while growing up but its a true testament to how loving she really was. She didnt wanna tell on those who treated her bad and wrote about how she cared about all people. Kris u had a great heart and even better spirit. I wish i was lucky enough to know u. Im lucky enough to know ur story. I know ur in heaven smiling down on all those who love u. Look over 23000 people have come to ur website. The shy bashfull girl has 23000 peoples attention. May u rest in peace beautiful angle.
joe shennan
April 9th 2009
I didn't know Kristina, hey, I live in England, but I'm just touched by this story. I just can't contemplate why this happened, why kids have to be so cruel to other kids, why they feel the need to do it I sympathise with this story so much because I have been in a similar situation, but pulled through it. I just wish I could have done something to help Kristina, even though I know really, that there was nothing I could have done. She was a stunning young girl, and I will never forget her story
J R C
April 7th 2009
I never knew Kristina, but I can't imagine how she felt. I, myself have never bullied anyone, but was the one sticking up for that person getting bullied. Kids are cruel. They bully kids to feel accepted by the other bullies in a desperate attempt to be accepted themselves, and to feel better about their own insecurities. I have thought about commiting suicide throughout my life, but due to the grief I might leave behind, I just could never do it. Like this page states, I believe if she knew the hurt she would leave behind, she never would have done it. And, like another person wrote on here, I believe everything does happen for a reason. Maybe she did die so her story could be told, as she couldn't tell it when she was living. I stumbled upon her story while looking on youtube, and found this site after searching in more depth for her story. This is an AMAZING tribute and also an amazing testiment on how cruel kids can be. These pages need to be printed out a million times over and distributed to every high school in America. I guarantee after reading this terribly tragic story, many kids would think twice about opening their mouths only to hurt another. Thank you for this page it touched my heart in so many ways. I'm soo sorry for your loss, but out of a loss, can come so many wins. I believe that in every way, especially with this story. Goodbye Kristina, I know you are missed and you were absolutely GORGEOUS!! I just wish I could've been there to tell you that a million times over....
Christy
April 1st 2009
I just read Kristina's story today and felt upset. She was a beautiful girl.
chelsea
March 16th 2009
Kristina calco's story really had a big impact on me. I realized how bad bullying can really get. Kristina was a really beautiful, gourgoes, smart girl. she pretty much was a complete package. I wish i could've met her before she went up with the angles in a better place. So because of bullying i didnt get a chance to. Thats why i choose to watch my actions and what i say because i dont want to hurt anybody. Rest in peace Kristina.
-chelsea
Lexi
March 12th 2009
"Hey Lexi! You can't play, you're a girl!
Those were the words I heard every day on the playground when I was 7 years old.
Those were the words, of my first bully.
This made me very angry. I wanted to punch this kid in the face. So I did.
When I went home, I felt terrible.
Although the next day when I went to school, nobody ever told me I couldn't play again.
That bully taught me to stand up.
My second bully came along when I was 10 years old. Thinking that I could solve this problem like my 7th grade bully, I punched him. Unfortunetally, this bully was a foot taller than me, and very, very strong.
That bully taught me that violence wasn't the answer.
Only 6 months ago, my best friend turned against me. With her, she brought three other girls and made a hate clique...against me. They called themselves the I.C. for Inner Circle, and tormented me daily.
They became my 3rd bully.
I had no other friends at school, and blamed myself for their bullying.
I looked in the mirror and saw a too busy face, large thighs, sweaty palms and feet.
I thought I wasn't good enough, and worked hard in the desperate attempt to make myself "Worthy".
I never told anybody what was going on, and most people still don't know that it happened.
I joined clubs, worked hard on homework, but I always had to face social events, where I was alone.
I got hate e-mails every day or so.
I didn't know what to do. I knew I had to stand up, but I knew violence wasn't the answer. These bullys lasted for three months.
The last day, I decided to stand up. Although, my best friend beat me to it.
She told me that she didn't want to gossip about me, stay in the I.C. and do things like that.
I took her back.
About two months later, I got invited to an I.C. member's birthday party. It was the bullies, me, and two other girls.
We went into her hot tub, talked, cried, and made up.
These bullies are now my best friends. We have been best friends for three months.
My last bullies taught me, don't let fear paralyze you.
So when your bully threatens you, remember these three things:
Stand up. Violence isn't the answer. And Don't let fear paralyze you.
Lexi
Hayley
February 26th 2009
Today in school we had a guest speaker talk to us about suicide. An article of Kristina was shown to our class. I saw her picture and thought she looked like the last person that would end their life. She was beyond beautiful. Even though i wish she could have see herself differently, everything in life happens for a reason. i believe that kristina's story died so that her story could be heard. R I P. im sorry for your loss
Michelle Gonzalez
February 15th 2009
i never knew Kristina but im 14 and all the way in Las Vegas and i still dont know how a beautiful girl like that be hated upon. Or told she was ugly!!! she was beutiful on the outside and i bet on the inside. I know how hard it is to be in the adolecent age. I feel like dying my self at one point.
But then i think about my family. How much i love them. I think Kristina wasnt really thinking she just wanted a break at that point. She really didnt realize you can NEVER come back... Ever becuase you only have one life to Live and thats it. i wish you the best Kristina in the other Life♥
Liv
February 13th 2009
heya, i came across a video on youtube about teens commiting suicide and kristina caught my eye. Two years ago, i got raped and stalked and it was so bad that i had to move. during that time, i got super depressed and became really quiet, i had all these thoughts about wanting to end it because i felt like a failure-i had wanted to stay a virgin until marriage but it isn't going to happen now because of what happened. Someone appeared to me at that time and he changed my life. He made me believe again and even though i only knew him for a short time before the car crash, i feel blessed to have known him and called him my own. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss
Adam
February 9th 2009
Your daughter has encouraged me to keep trying. I myself did have thoughts. They are over now that I found a cure, but I hated to see my life as it was, and then after seeing your daughter's story that makes me try harder. What I mean is I talk to 10+ people over the internet and more than half of them have had "thoughts". I was about to give up on them, because the more people I meet the harder it gets. Your daughter is encourageing me to do so much, it's hard for a 17 year old to do school and help others at the same time but it's like and addiction to me. Your daughter truly was remarkable and will always be in my thoughts. Will ALWAYS remember you *Kristina*, you encourage me to do so much!
Laura
January 15th 2009
i learned of your daughters horrific experience from a memorial site, a close friend of mine comitted suicide not long ago. Kristina story influenced in my English coursework, persuading youths to stop bullying and prooving that it can have traumatic effects on many lives. I send my heart out to Kristina R.I.P beautiful. Such a pretty face hurt by so many others.
John Bows
December 24th 2008
I learned of your Daughter's story tonight as part of a video compilation about teens who've been subjected to the awful side of bullying and mistreatment. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I knew quite what to say, but I don't have the words. I only hope you find peace, and that your daughter has found it now. However, having read this story and a number of others, I will never let any child knowingly be subjected to that kind of mistreatment that your daughter had to endure. A loss such as this is far too great to allow even one more. God bless your family.
Allie McCheeser
December 4th 2008
Dear Kristina's loving family,
Well, hi. :) I read your daugher's story and I just really felt like reaching out to you. I am extremely, sincerely sorry about your daughter. Someone as beautiful outside and in, is sure to be in Heaven. I wish I could've known your daughter, she sounds like someone I would really like to get to know.
May God Bless You All.
-Allie.
paul
November 26th 2008
ive read the story about your daughter and although i didnt know her and you dont know me, i want to share the fact that i feel your pain. I had a brother that was very close to me die and i never got over it. He was also someone that looked like he had no motivation to end his life and the news of his death was so shocking to me. i just wanted to say how sorry i am about your daughter and to let you know that there are people out there that feel your pain and can console you in your time of need.
Amanda
November 26th 2008
Hi,
I've read Kristina's story time and time again. It's just so sad to me. There was this anti-bullying assembly we had in my school just 2 days ago. In the video, I saw Kristina's picture. From the moment I saw her, I only thought "How could someone so pretty take her own life?" I find it horrid she had to suffer for so long. I too feel that way. I am bullied by my old brother, and I don't think he knows what choice I can make because of him. Kristina was a true angel sent from heaven above. I wish her the best in heaven, and hope she is much happier. It's a shame, really. Such a wonderful girl couldn't see the great things she had to offer...God bless her & her family. I wish all the luck to you.
Love,
Amanda
josh
November 25th 2008
I read about about Kristina's story recently and felt deeply touched. Kristina was a beautiful girl and may god be with you and your family.
